Beyond Fear
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Baths of Qohor, annexed by the Green Faith
Fifteenth Day of the Second Month 294 AC
"Don't be afraid, the water feels a bit strange and clingy until you get used to it."
The watcher looked on upon the rites of dedication, the subtle ripples of water tainted with arcane salts and the fluids of far-touched beings, and he pitied those who lead him through the chants and invocations. He did not know what to do with the pity. They must
know what they were doing, what they were dedicating their fellow mortals to. Rites of obedience yes, of clear sight and lucid dreaming, but also of fertility.
Xor had taken on female guise, the body well past child-bearing and one of the things 'she' had been promised was a family... children. For himself the spectator did not feel any disdain at the ripples of Higher Forms against his being, how could be, but had he been the mortal he was presenting himself to be, the violation of dependability... ah, no sanctity of form and legacy would have been horrific. It still tripped him up how much of mortal languages was bound up in the concept of holiness that seemed to him a sort of pact and resonance, no different than paying to listen to a concert. It still shook him the sort of things mortals were willing to do for their gods, to themselves and to others.
Did they know?
Two pairs of nictating eyelids flashes in the candle flame, a dozen tiny mouths whizzed quietly in the steam-filled air of the baths, muffled by the towels that would keep them hidden.
Were they nervous about getting caught, or about inflicting such transformations of the flesh upon the unknowing?
"Don't be afraid, the Green God is one of life and of peace. Soon all your troubles will melt away into the earth," the youngest of the women helping with Xor's hair said.
They weren't wrong, but Xor doubted one in a hundred thousand humans wanted that sort of sublimation of the flesh and the will. That which they served loved Its children, but it also devoured them to birth them anew that the cycle may repeat itself into eternity.
"I am not fearful, just a touch overwhelmed," the spectator replied, hiding a lie in the truth as he had learned to do from watching Viserys and Daenerys. "Why was I selected for this honor? I am no great lady or scholar, I have nothing to give but myself, my devotion."
"You drank the cup of First Feasting and were not overcome by dreams of the past seeking to keep you back from enlightenment," another of the women replied, peering curiously at their newest initiate.
Some kind of hallucinogen meant to induce a suggestive state and bring one's deeper loyalties to the surface? Xor wondered. That was an oddly specific use for an alchemical concoction. There had to be active use of power involved, be it of the Spheres or the Forms Beyond, but he had felt nothing past his wards. At least turning all his charms and talismans unseen so he could bathe without giving himself away had gone well.
"I am honored," this one was an actual lie but it could not be helped. He was deeply worried about these women and what they may have been promised and were promising others in turn. They never really had a chance to say no, not if this Black Goat was what he thought it was. That made Xor angry in the way few things did, the loss of will of identity, of self, and for what? So a tone deaf wouldbe god could play out dreams of flesh, like a child playing with dolls?
In the end, those treated like dolls would ultimately break as dolls did.
The Spectator swallowed his wrath and offered a smile to the one who had spoken first, Ryelle, he recalled, she of the hidden mouths. "I'm happy to be welcomed so warmly, but I'm still new to the city, could we maybe speak about more mundane matters later? Like where to find a clean inn and a good seamstress that is not too fussy. I fear traveling is not the best for my wardrobe."
"You can stay at the temple," more than one voice insisted with bright genuine smiles.
"I could not possibly accept charity. There are others far more deserving of it..." It took him a while to get the point across, but eventually they did relent and Ryelle agreed to help him look for an inn.
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Golden Shoe Inn, Qohor
"Don't be afraid, but I'm not exactly who I said I was back at the temple..." There was a lot less screaming than Xor had been concerned about, though that may have been because he noted her mutation without judgement or ill will. "I really do wish to know more about the Green Faith, but I fear you may not know as much as you think."
"I... you can't... no one can keep secrets from the Eyes, no one!" Ryelle said her breath coming quick and fast. A policing arm of the cult, he supposed.
"Well you see I have eyes of my own." Xor wiggled his eye-stalks for emphasis.
She giggled, a pretty almost choral sound now that her mouths weren't hidden away.
Xor turned an Outer Circle Cultist
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OOC: I was a little unsure of doing an update from Xor's PoV, but given his success I felt that it worked best this way. Hopefully the perspective of a Far Realm cult as seen by a friendly, and by now quite worldly, aberration is interesting to read. Not yet edited.