Author Notes: Just something for fun. The idea hit me and I decided to run with it. Probably won't make it into a full blow detailed story and instead will write this in snippets format. For those wondering
technically speaking it's also a SI story.
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I woke up slowly like always, though I refrained from laying back once more for an extra hour of sleep since I'm supposed to help mother in the kitchen now.
...
Waaaait a minute.
I sat on the bed and looked at my side. My younger brother was still sleeping, check? I looked down on myself and saw a tiny girl of around eight, scratching my head I found out I had shoulder length brown hair. Also check?
Except I also kind of remember being older? And a man?
... I think I'm supposed to be upset at not being a man, but I'm feeling kind of 'meh' about it? Somehow I feel depressed about that.
I'm also in a small village in the Riverlands, being the daughter of a former sellsword who settled down to have kids.
Well fuck, I'm on A Song of Ice and Fire.
Double fuck, I'm a
smallfolk on A Song of Ice and Fire.
Triple fuck, I'm a
woman smallfolk on A Song of Ice and Fire.
...
"Guess I will never make my own canal, huh?"
~~O~~
"Dad, can you teach me how to use a sword?" I asked my father one of these days and he looked at me from where he was repairing the hole in the wall from a board that became rotten.
"You're a girl, what do you want to use a sword for?"
"Oh, I can think of a few reasons why a poor, defenseless maiden might want to know how to defend herself in this world."
He hit his thumb with the hammer as I said those words and he let out a stream of curses flow from him. Hmm, a bit of variations on cursing compared with my modern day knowledge. I wonder if I can make my variations popular in the future? Food for thought.
"Who taught those things?" He demanded from me, grabbing me on the shoulders with a bit more force than strictly necessary.
"Who taught me what?" I said picture perfect innocence.
He stared at me for a few moments and I didn't give in, thought the large part that was a little girl wanted to squirm on his grip. Finally he sighed before muttering under his breath and releasing me. "I suppose I can teach you a thing or two on how to defend yourself", he relented, "but you have to keep up with your mother's lessons and not skip on helping in the fields, understand? And don't forget looking after your brother."
I nodded at him, with so few children at the village of my own age it was a no brainer. I didn't had much experience killing time playing around, working since an early age to help my parents. As is right and proper for a smallfolk elder girl.
"Speaking of them, I can hear your mother calling you. Now run around."
I didn't heard her saying that, but with my old man memories I knew that was adult speak for 'I want to be alone for a moment'.
~~O~~
Time passed, and my family were amazed at my development. Not that I was a genius or anything, or even a prodigy or something. Hard to be that when you have fragmented memories of another life that had already half faded from time, but also because I didn't knew how to read and write the local language. It
sounded like english, but the first time I saw the local script it was nothing at all like english. If I were to guess it was closer to one of Tolkien's elven.
What I did however was soak up the lessons quickly and dedicate far more time into mastering them than a child my age had any right to. Both the traditional womanly arts, such as embroidery (both to use at home and to sell on the local market), sewing, cooking and others, and the self-defense lessons my father gave me. He didn't felt a girl should handle a sword, at least not a girl of eight to nine, but he presented me with a dagger to train.
For some reason he also started teaching me archery and I was doing alright in it though I didn't practice it nearly as much. We also went to hunt on the nearby forest one day, bringing down a rabbit I shot through blind luck. It was delicious.
I guess my father liked the fact that he had a kid which he could spend some quality time with, even if I'm sure he preferred if I were a boy. My old man's memories told me I would probably suck at those things!
"Rose! Come on, we are going to the chapel today!"
I brought my younger brother, Edmond or Ed for short, with me. I had already brushed my hair, taking far more time with it than my old man memories did on his own hair, but guess that's being a girl for you.
"Let's go Ed, time to pay homage to the Seven." I told my younger brother of five. He nodded and we meet our parents at the front of our house, and they were dressed in better clothes than usual.
"Let's go Rose and Edmond", my father Richard said. Taking the hand of my mother Anna we went to the chapel.
As we walked I thought on what I was supposed to do with those old man memories I have. I mean, with few exceptions every noble is a backstabbing asshole, not that I need those foreign memories to know that, but the fact that soon-ish the Ice Zombie Apocalypse, what my old man memories called the Long Night and the invasion by the Others and Wights, will come in this or at least on the next generation. Unless I die young I'm probably guaranteed to see the world go to the seven hells.
But as a member of the smallfolk, as a woman no less, my influence is much more limited, and like my old man memories I don't have the temperament or stomach for certain acts that could potentially land me in a position of influence if I'm really, really lucky.
I don't know what to do.
Gods Old, New and foreign, I don't know what to do.
~~O~~
Looking around I saw a few neighbors talking with my father who had a dead look on his eyes. My mother was inconsolable, as for me? I was angry, angry at the world and the fact that this had happened.
It was just a cold,
just a cold, and yet my brother now lay dead on the coffin being buried right now. Fuck this backwards world without proper medicine, fuck this world without the proper education so that a village like this had a proper medic in it. Fuck this world for this fucking medieval stasis in it!
Fuck you G.R.R. Martin, fuck you!
I felt someone hug me, and looking up I saw my father. "It's alright dear, your brother", he sobbed, "he's with the Seven now."
Those words didn't reassure me, specially not when I had heard the other adults saying my father was lucky for 'only' losing a single child up until now.
The sad part was, they said it to lift his spirits and they meant it as that.
Suddenly, some of my old man memories felt so petty now. At least he knew in his heart that he had it much better than some people. Perhaps even I do have it better thn some people.
That doesn't mean the pain is fake though.
~~O~~
Time passed, and I keep dedicating myself to my martial pursuits, if only so I could forget the pain of losing my little brother. Neither my parents had the energy to forbid me from training, specially since I was still as diligent as ever on my duties.
I still fought with my dagger, but father allowed me to practice with his sword sometimes, and he made me a practice one for me to swing around. I was also officially a 'woman', and boy wasn't that a freak out when I saw blood on my bedsheets. My old man memories supplied that something similar happened when his sister also became a woman, though she became one even younger than me at three and ten, or thirteen as my memories insisted.
"Come one Rose we're going to pick up a few things in the market", said my mother and I nodded. Father would stay on the farm to finish some preparations for harvest while I would help my mother on the market. As a notoriously strong girl, and only child besides, it was my duty to help her and I wasn't complaining. If my mother managed to fetch good prices, I could even buy a single pastry.
Of course, that's when everything went wrong.
You see, our farm is a fair bit away from the village proper so we had to walk for a while to reach it. The village was considered safe, but I'm not up to date with the news. For all I knew there would be bandits roaming the village.
Which was
exactly what happened right now.
"So", said a horse faced man with his band of brigands, "we got ourselves some easy prey huh? How about you pay the new toll for the road cuties?"
They quickly approached us, getting way closer than comfortable even if they weren't brigands.
"W-we don't want a-any trouble. T-this is all we have", my mother said while giving her coin purse.
The leader looked at the coin purse and frowned, before looking back at my mother. "Say, you have quite a cute kid with you", he said casually, "would be a shame if something happened to her."
"No! Anything but her! Don't touch her you bastards!" She said pulling her own dagger and I cursed at seeing my mother panic and act recklessly. With a moment's notice I was acting, taking my own dagger and stabbing the leader on the groin while my mother slashed at his throat making him fall on the ground choking on his own blood before he could order his goons.
For all the good that it did since they pulled their swords and came after us. Something hit me on the back of the head and my vision blackened out for a moment, and when I woke up again was to the sight of my mother being raped in front of me as someone held me on the ground.
"LET GO OF HER!!!"
The men raping my mother ignored my cry as I felt the man holding me shift his own grip for a moment.
Fucking world with it's fucking evil people made by a fucking sadistic evil fuck!
"AAAAHHHHH!!!"
Something inside of me snapped, and I felt a strange power flow on my body, giving me strength while encasing me in a soft white glow. With a violent jerk I threw the man on top of me before punching him on the throat and snapping his neck with absurd ease. Taking his sword I turned back to the group who had paused momentarily to stare at me before I charged at them.
I plunged the sword on the chest of the man currently on top of my mother, almost as if I was slidding a hot knife on butter, before I pulled the blade
up and cutting the man in half from chest to shoulder, the two halves of his body opening up and showering me with blood. Of course I used the same motion to swing in an arc towards my next enemy, basically cleaving him shoulder to hip. The other brigands looked at me, and one started to run.
I didn't let them, running as fast as I could, then going
even faster, a trail of white rose petals failing behind me just as I stabbed another man on his back. Then another was decapitated.
And another and another and another and another and another and another.
When I realized the sword I was using had snapped in half and I was crushing the remains of one of the bandits with my bare hands. I took a deep breath before going back to my mother to help her up, when I saw her with a stab wound on her stomach.
No no no no no NO!
"MOM!"
"Rose... listen."
"No, hold your breath!" I said while unnaturally quickly I took a few rags and pressed on her wound before tying it up to make pressure. "We're not too far from home, dad can certainly patch you up, he's a former sellsword, he should know those things!"
Without pausing for breath I took my mother in my arms, she felt so light now, before I took off as fast as I could while at the same time trying not to shaker much.
"Rose... I love you."
"MOM!"
~~O~~
Time passed, another funeral came.
I can't help but feel numb now. Only after the whole ordeal passed and I calmed down a little, I realized what I did and what that implied. My old man memories supplied a possible answer to the mystery that was simple for me to verify.
Taking a small knife to my hand I made a small cut, and willing the power I felt before into my hand, I saw the cut slowly closing itself before my eyes.
Aura, the answer my old man memories supplied to me.
The manifestation of your soul, a power from a world that didn't exist from memories that shouldn't be there from another world that didn't exist.
I almost cried right then and there if I didn't felt so numb.
I could have saved my mother if I had awakened her aura, said one part of me, I cold not have worked said another, even if it did you need experience to awaken someone's else aura said a third voice.
Even if it was two against one, it was oh so tempting to fall back into self-loathing. My old man memories had plenty of practice with that one.
Looking at my father nursing a drink, I shook my head before going at his side and hugging him while 'subtly' dropping the drink. He made some half hearted attempts at scolding me before breaking down.
No, I didn't had the luxury of self loathing right now. My father need me, and it's my duty as his daughter to help him.
~~O~~
Time passed and I was fifteen years old, and the Mad King Aerys II finally pushed things too far. I heard rumors about the king burning down Lord Stark so that gave me my timeline at the moment. The Riverlands had just started mobilizing for war and I knew my part of the region wanted to rebel and was raising their banners.
I looked at my sickly father on his deathbed.
I had unlocked his aura at some point, confirming that it was possible, but still he became sick even with the healing abilities of the power. If I were to guess, it was because of heartbreak.
"Rose listen. Soon you will be alone in the world", he said in between labored breaths, "and I can't give you much of an inheritance." He reached for the small cabinet at the side of his bed where his sword was, "take my sword. It's castle forged so it's higher quality than most of what levies and sellswords usually carry. I can't give you the house since the actual owner is our liege lord, but those past few months I sold everything I could to give you a better start on your life."
I grasped at the sword on his side and looked at the coin purse. Everything he owned had suddenly disappeared from the house, and while my father had reassured me I thought some burglar had robbed us.
"If you find a better life somewhere else, please came back and take your family bones with you."
I chocked back a sob while nodding. "I will dad."
"Good good. I advise you to reveal your abilities only to those you trust, but you're a grown woman now and you can make your own decisions. Just take care alright?"
"I will dad."
"It's been so long since I saw my son. I hope your mother took good care of him while they waited for me."
With those parting words, he took one last and peaceful breath, and he was no more.
~~O~~
The funeral was quick and few people attended. He was buried alongside the rest of our family, and it would be a temporary resting place.
I would fight in the war, make a name for myself so I could have some measure of power, then I will make sure the world becomes a place where my family would be proud to live in.