"Your Bookkeeper is stealing money right underneath your nose."
The audacity of this child.
Those were his first impressions of the boy.
Well. Not his first. The boy's parents were close friends with him and often visited his humble Library, sometimes bringing along their children. So no, he was well aware of the boy's existence.
And the fact that he took a peek at his commercial records. Normally, he would throw the rascal out of his establishment for that.
But the boy's parents— he trusted them with his life. So, He let the boy be, and gave him unspoken permission to look around his library.
Apparently, his past self had made the wrong judgement.
But still. The boy was nearly a grown man, but he was still a child. So he gave him another chance.
He told the boy to explain himself in the politest tone he could manage. Blurting out such a serious accusation towards Gerold, his bookkeeper for a decade, required substantial evidence, after all.
Something must've been wrong with his speech, because the boy looked like he was going to faint. Seriously, was this child a boy or a girl? It wasn't like he was really scolding him.
Okay, Martha was giving him the death glare. He must have said something wrong to her son tha-
Wait, the boy's lips were moving, but not a single word was coming out of his mouth.
The boy was panicking now. His eyes were darting left and right, looking for an escape route. His back seemed to be damp with sweat. He uncrossed and crossed his arms in a vain attempt to gather courage.
Must be nervous. Of course he was nervous. A big frame muscular stormlander like him must have posed an imposing figure. an intimidating symbol of adult authority to the boy. It didn't help that he had a deep voice, either.
He sighed.
"Before you say anything, take a deep breath. That's it. Just. Calm yourself first. Breath in. Breath out. Good. Now, do you have a reason for such a serious accusation?"
The boy still looked nervous, but he stopped acting like a lost pigeon. Or a headless duck. That was an improvement. Even if he looked like he was going to faint, at least he was trying to keep it together.
Now if only he had something worthwhile to sa-
A rush of words spewed out of the boy's mouth.
His eyes widened.
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He was hired on the spot. The previous bookkeeper, Gerold, was fired for ripping off Ronald's, the library owner, hard-earned silver stags, and he became the new bookkeeper.
His parents, who had a front row seat to the drama that unfolded, were incredibly proud of him and told him so just before they left to complete some errands. After all, it had required six full months of fruitless interviews for apprenticeships positions. Six months of constant rejections. Six months of people whispering behind his back, of the strange child with his book of witchcraft. Six months of worry and fear of an uncertain future.
He should be proud that he got the job. It meant that he could gain some respect for himself. A means to support himself. It means that the vile rumours could cease for a while.
Except.
Except that he didn't want the responsibility.
This was not part of the plan. The plan was to show off a little. Introduce double-entry accounting. Prove that Gerold was embezzling money from the library. Brown nose a little. Get an entry level job, something like a librarian? That was the plan.
(It was fairly easy to prove Gerold was stealing money. The idiot didn't even bother covering his tracks well. He was busy creating new fictitious suppliers of parchment which on the surface seemed legitimate, except there's only one true parchment supplier in town, the Great Sept itself. King Baelor made sure of that. So no, Gerold wasn't just corrupt. He was also lazy. The only reason he got the job was because he was Ronald's blood relative, or that's what his parents said.)
But no. Apparently he had to suffer from overachievement. He did not want to be the sole person responsible for the library's financial well being.
And he really, really didn't want to be the person to reorganise the entire financial record keeping of this establishment. He was too inexperienced and young to do such a thing.
(The sweat had returned. The shakes were starting again. His hands trembled regardless of his wishes for them to be still. He ignored it as best as he could. Deep breath. Just breathe. In. Out. In. Out. There was nothing wrong. It was nothing. Nothing at all. I am nothing.)
He told Ronald his worries. The madman just laughed and said he was more than capable of such an endeavour, and he trusted he would do a good job. Obviously, he would take a look at the records from time to time, just to see if he was actually doing his job, but he had full confidence he would do better than the previous bookkeeper.
What the fuck. That seemed awfully irresponsible of him, downright naive, even. Especially since his previous employee did such a wonderful job at messing up the records. And now he had to unfuck the situation.
(Why was he so sweaty? Stop being gross. You got the job already, so stop being stressed. Why, why—why was he like this. No, calm down. Deep breaths, breathe in, breathe out. Still nervous, his hands were trembling. No. Deep breaths again. In.…out…)
His bad feelings must have shown on his facial expressions as Ronald did seem apologetic. The stormlander explained that normally he would have caught Gerold red-handed, if he wasn't so districted with local politics as well as being busy handling new suppliers outside of King's Landing. So he didn't have much time to look through the records whatsoever.
(Deep breathing is not fucking working. It's getting worse. need a distraction, if not…this will escalate into something else. Fuck— stop shaking. Why am I shaking so badly?Breathe, just breathe. In. Out. In.. Why amI sweating so much? I should lea- no. No— I can't run away. Don't run. Stay. Stay. People need me, so do not run. Not from this.)
Well, the records did prove Ronald wasn't lying. It was only fairly recently that Gerold had gotten greedy and started skimming some of the library earnings when Ronald was out of town. Normally, the punishment for embezzlers would be a civil trial and chopping off the offender's hands, or the wall. But Ronald, on account of Gerold's years of service, just fired him. Let him go, just like that.
He really didn't understand his new employer. It might just be a public relations stunt? Or because of nepotism? Maybe both. Probably both.
Anyway, Ronald continued, since this was his first day on the job, he would get his daughter to show him around the place. Familiarise himself with his new working environment, so to speak.
(Look at the walls, they're made of wood I think, is it oak or something, no this keeps getting worse, the shakes are getting worse, look, keep looking for something. Breathe breathe breathe, in, out, in. There are so many desks with people reading chain manuscripts, why chain the manu- to prevent theft. Sensible. So many people, everyone counting on me. Me. Why, why why why. I don't want this. I want this so badly. Why is my body like this? No, stop, stop and breathe. In, out, in, out. Whatever you do. Don't run. Not again, never again don't run from this, cannot run. There is no door, trapped again, always trapped. What the fuck is wrong with y-)
Which brought him right here, in front of a brunette girl sneering at him, asking if he had any questions before she started the tour.
(Is it too late to run away from everything? No. Never. Run you fucking coward nothing you do will change. You're still the same even after all these years. Run then, run away from yourself. That is the only thing you can do.)
It seemed someone had already decided they hate his guts.
Joy.
Pathetic.
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Leyla didn't like the new bookkeeper.
Not one bit.
For one, he was shaking. Like actually shaking. His entire body was literally vibrating from sheer nervousness. And he was sweating profusely. Seriously, was he a boy or a girl?
She couldn't believe the new bookkeeper was related to Oscar. They were two complete opposites; Oscar was dashing, rogue and charismatic, while the new bookkeeper was…
Never mind. She felt bad thinking about him so lowly.
But still, she didn't know him. Despite knowing Oscar well since he always visited the library (even though he didn't read anything and only watched her for some reason), his younger brother was a non-entity in her mind. A non-factor. Someone that she knew existed in the neighbourhood, but not someone she was remotely close to in the slightest.
Which meant he could be a threat to her. To her inheritance.
She was an only child. But what if her father liked the new guy more and decided to give her inheritance to him instead? Maybe his shakes and shivers were a mummer farce. Maybe he was trying to deceive everyone so he could claim what was rightfully hers. Maybe—
She knew she was being paranoid, but still. Still. Her male relatives were always looking for a way to steal what was hers by law, but laws could change, Will Guarantors could be bribed, and her father's will could be changed by unscrupulous relatives after his demise. She was, after all, just a girl. And the fairer sex's worth was only to be betrothed and then married. Just as the gods intended.
Her uncle's words, not hers.
So yes, she might be a tad paranoid. But she felt that her worries were justified, despite her father's repeated assurance the library was hers if he passed away without a son.
She loved her father, but he was too trusting of relatives with greedy intentions. History was never kind to female inheritors. Just ask Rhaenyra. Actually, you couldn't ask her, for she was already dead.
Oh, the new bookkeeper asked a question. Mumbled, really.
When was this place first founded?
…No one actually told him. Guess his parents didn't want their children to know their dirty past history with her father.
Well then. Guess she had to give him the standard new hired talk after all.
"This Library was first founded by my father about 12 years ago as a way to store knowledge and books that he acquired over the years as a travelling merchant," she started. "Over the years he acquired even more manuscripts, scrolls and books from his own network of contacts across Westeros and even from Essos. Obviously we are not a charity here so anyone who wished to read here had to pay for the privilege to do so. Oh, we also do book rentals, which is when readers are allowed to borrow books or scrolls, but they have to pay a deposit as collateral so they, you know, don't just run off. Also, see those chained manuscripts?"
She pointed towards the collection of desks. "Those are the rare ones, the ones that are one of a kind. The kind not even my father will risk allowing readers to borrow because of their immense value, so of course the privilege of reading them is more expensive than the normal book or manuscript copy."
Even if the entire neighbourhood was once in on the scheme, it was best for those who didn't know to be kept in the dark. After all, if word got out, they were all going to the wall or be hanged for treason.
Ignorance was a blessing. The irony was delicious.
Wait, the boy wasn't even listening to her book speech. Which was incredibly rude. She should probably scold him for that, except he probably wouldn't register her scolding. In fact, he looked like he was going to faint at any moment.
Worrying. Guess she had to distract him from whatever he was thinking. Even if she couldn't trust him, no one deserved to be so wrecked with nerves. It was nauseating and spoiled her mood as well.
What to do, what to do.
Huh.
He was carrying a book. Well, not carrying, more like clinging onto it like a drowning man clinging onto a piece of log in the middle of an ocean.
Interesting.
"You wrote a book by yourself? That is incredible! You are what? 14? That is the same age as me and you've already finished writing a book by yourself? Can I read it? I promise to return it later!"
The boy said he was the author, and no, he would not let her read the book.
Unacceptable. She did not take no for an answer.
Another approach, then.
"You clearly spent a lot of time writing that book and seeing as you're clinging to it so tightly, it clearly holds immense personal value to you. Don't you want more people to appreciate your hard work? My father and I can arrange for your book to be stored here and let people read it. Imagine your book being read by maesters, wouldn't that be great??"
The boy said she could've put in more effort in her speech. But he did let her take a glance at his book. He called it the book of fables.
Which, she was guessing, was a book of natural sciences? Cartography? Sounded like her kind of book. She could feel her excitement grow.
And then she opened the book.
And read the chapter.
Her excitement vanished.
Anger and crushing disappointment took over.
This. This Bookkeeper.
He spent so much time. Effort. Tears. Precious parchment. Ink. So much ink and parchment.
On half-baked fake tales of fictional worlds. Did he know how much a sheet of parchment cost? Five silver stags. Five silver stags were wasted. And on what— children's tales.
And there were hundreds of papers. And the ink. The ink too. She didn't want to know how much the entire book actually cost.
His parents must've spent, no, wasted dozens of gold dragons for this. THIS.
AND THE ENTIRE CHAPTER WAS FILLED WITH GRAMMAR ERRORS. WHAT WAS WITH THE SENTENCE STRUCTURES? ALSO THE VERBS WERE USED INCORRECTLY. SHE HAD TO REREAD THIS THREE. TIMES. TO EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT THE STORY WAS ABOUT. IT WAS ALMOST LIKE HE JUST STARTED LEARNING HOW TO WRITE REC-
Wait, why was the entire library looking at her?
Where did the bookkeeper go? He was right in front of her.
Also why was her father's face so dark?
…By the maiden nonexistent chest, she'd said it out loud.
Uhhhh.
Well.
Shit.
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Oscar found his brother cowering in an alleyway.
It wasn't that hard to find him. He just had to follow the sounds of sobbing.
Wait, that's a lie, his brother was actually pretty hard to find when he didn't want to be found.
It was only thanks to the neighbourhood criers pointing where he went that Oscar found him.
Honestly, society could not function without town criers. Good men. They deserve higher wages.
Anyway,
He honestly thought his brother was doing better now. Well, at least he was doing fine these past few months. He'd been trying to find an apprenticeship but it wasn't his fault that he had bad luck. Most shops in their neighbourhood already had their hands full with current apprentices. Or just straight up didn't want him for being a weird child. Stupid really, his brother was really cute with that book of his, always by his side.
People just couldn't comprehend his brother's greatness, really. Bunch of losers.
But still.
Still. He expected better. Not of his brother. Never him. He was trying his best. But he really expected better of Leyla. She shouldn't have been so hard on him.
Like, she was really cute and easy to look at (her ponytail and the way she frowned when reading some dusty scroll. She looked. Amazing.), but she was so paranoid that someone was out to steal the library from her. Like, come on, look at his baby brother, he couldn't even hurt a baby! At least she looked guilty when he asked where his brother went, served her right, heh.
She did look really cute with that guilty loo-
Nope not the time, absolutely not the time for that.
His brother needed the great Oscar. The second coming of the Sea Snake.
So he did what all responsible older siblings did.
He hugged him.
And dragged him to a tavern.
It was high time for a drink.
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"And that's why Lelya has a stick up her ass. Wait, not like that. But despite uh, having a stick up her ass, she is so cute like by the gods I'm happy you got an apprenticeship but I wish I could trade places with you, brother."
He wished to be anywhere but here.
But Oscar was trying to cheer him up.
Even if it was with this god-awful beer, his brother had come to save him from himself. So
He stayed.
Even though hearing that Oscar had a massive crush on that Bitch was–well, honestly not that weird. They were just a year apart. But still.
He'd rather not talk about how Leyla was amazing. Or cute. Or apparently an intellectual. A prodigy. A female maester. Whatever. Being viscerally torn apart like that in front of dozens of intellectuals, scholars and maesters was… You know what?
He just wanted to cower somewhere and process the magnitude of his fuck up.
Also, talking about how cute a teenage girl was was very fucking creepy.
Well, at least his panic attacks had stopped. What a fucking disaster.
He drank his beer. Blugh. It sucked ass. His past life wasn't much of a drinker, either, and yet…he wanted more.
Oh wait, his brother was quiet now. It seemed like he was actually going to say something profound, with how much his forehead wrinkles were showing.
He had to listen to this.
" Brother, you know how bad I am with speeches. But you need to hear this. No matter what anyone says about you, you're great. Fantastic, really." Oscar said with a bright, flashing smile.
He frowned. Oscar didn't know shit what the fuck does he know about him anyway.
"No, don't give me that look. You need to love yourself more. So what if you ran away from your first day at work? Bah, fuck Leyla. Not in that way you know mother would kill m- you know what? If I was there I would scold her back." Oscar exclaimed as he let out a laugh.
Oscar would not do that, he loved leyla way too much to talk back to her, that was his honest thoughts.
Somehow his brother was a telepathic.
"Yes, I would scold her. Even if I like her, she went too far this time. You know what brother, your main problem is that you don't fight back. You just soak up everything. Now that's fine sometimes, but it's not always the right solution. You need to stand up for yourself at times. But if you don't, well, that's fine! I am here for a reason." Oscar said with a weary smile as his arms pulled him into a hug.
"Anyway, that was a long-winded speech, but I guess what I want to say is that if you have problems you should just stand up for yourself. Talk about it. I mean, I'm here right? Oh gods you're going to cry again." His brother's head looked around frantically for something or someone for help. Suspiciously everyone else in the tavern was busy with their own conversations or drinks.
"Hhhhh fuck. Okay uh. You know what. Tomorrow we'll march into Uncle Ronald's library, and force Leyla to apologise. Now cheer up, we got beers to drink." Today, he thought, was a suspiciously rainy day. In a tavern, of all places.
Laughing uproariously, together they toasted and drank a a pair of cups brimming with beer form.
And another.
And another
And another.
This continued for quite a while
.
.
.
.
And that was how he received his first hangover.
And how he was late to his second day of work.
Fuck.