I really need to stop doing this to myself. Nonetheless...
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Index
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One (this post)
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
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One
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279 AC - Entry One
As I write these words, I am but a child. A child in body at least, for though I am by all physical accounts only three years old, I feel so much older.
I remember going to sleep as a grown man, in a world so very different from the one that I see around me. I remember things that the people around me have no conception of. The nature of the Sun that shines in the sky, of mathematics that have yet to be invented, and of weapons that would make a land like this tremble in terror and bow down in fear.
And I remember being born again, for a second time. I do not know how it happened or why, or whether I am mad or in a coma induced dream, but no man can live as though he does not trust his memory and senses for long, so I can only believe that it all is true.
My name is Viserys Targaryen, second son of Aerys II Targaryen, King of the Andals, the Rhoynar, and the First Men, Lord of the Seven Kingdoms and Protector of the Realm, whom they call the Mad King. Quite the mouthful of titles, I know.
I remember how terrified I was, when I was born to the Queen Rhaella, a squalling infant with the mind and memories of a man in his mid-twenties. I have the memories of the things that ordinary people don't, the earliest years of my life. Being able to remember being breast-fed by the wet nurse that my father provided, too paranoid to even let my mother touch me, is exactly the sort of memory that is mildly traumatic to recall.
Truly, I wish I could write that I hate this place, and the people in it. I wish I could write it all off and say that there is nothing good about this crapsack world that I've been reborn into. It is probably all some cosmic entity's idea of a joke.
But I can't. The Red Keep is beautiful, as is King's Landing. And despite myself, I do feel some fondness for my family. My mother and brother at least.
Now that I have finally been given the chance to write, I can put to paper everything I remember of the events that are to come, everything I can remember of physics and math, and the making of things that would not be invented for centuries otherwise, things like black powder.
And I need not worry about anyone reading this. Writing in English might as well be an unbreakable cipher to these people. I am the only person in the world who can speak or read or write it.
I have been given a second chance to live, an opportunity that many would kill for dropped right into my lap. Everything I ever believed about the world, and about God, and life and death was shattered when I was reborn three years ago.
And I intend to live for a long, long time yet.
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There I stood, high atop the the tallest tower of the Red Keep as the wind whipped at my clothes. My silver-blond hair, pulled back into a single ponytail streamed out to my left as though to pull me over.
The sky was dark and stormy as far as the eye could see. Lightning cracked and thunder roared in the distance. But the roar of the thunder was nothing compared to the ear-bursting roar of the dragon.
I fell to my knees, covering my ears with my hands as I stared up into the sky. A mighty dragon, its wingspan measuring at least a twenty meters if not more, roared its challenge to the world. The apex predator soared below the clouds, and as it circled my tower, flame poured forth from its mouth, a fire as deep crimson as fresh-spilled blood, streaked with lines of silver.
The fire was like an extension of its own body, its mostly silver scales accented by crimson, making it seem a blood-soaked predator in flight.
My breath was caught in my throat as it soared three times around the tower before landing, perching on the parapets in front of me, where I was knocked on my back by the wind from its wings. Its head drew close to me, watching me, and I felt like I was being judged.
Its teeth, long and sharp as daggers snapped at me as I reached out to touch its nose, and I drew back my hand in fear. I could feel its breath on my face, hot even to a Targaryen, and it smelled of blood. And though its maw was slightly bloody, there were no chunks of meat between its teeth, cleansed by dragonfire.
It nudged me with its head, its slitted right eye staring deep into my soul and...
I woke up, gasping for breath and drenched in sweat. My hand went to my heart, and I waited for my racing pulse to subside.
It was not an uncommon occurrence. I had such dreams with disturbing regularity. Ever since my rebirth six years ago I have been plagued by these vivid dreams once, perhaps twice a month. Sometimes they were meaningless, just a vision of a dragon that would invariably approach me, other times it would be of the view from the back of one of the great beasts, and still others would be of strange people and places and things I could make no sense of. But always there was a dragon.
I slipped out from under my sheets and padded barefoot across my room in the Red Keep. It was just barely dawn, and only a little light streamed in from my window, but enough for me to see by and light the oil-lamp on my desk to see by.
I grabbed a quill, unstopped the ink, pulled my journal of dreams out from under my other texts, and began to write down what I had seen.
Dragon dreams. I wrote them all down, every dream I could remember upon waking, no matter how meaningless they seemed to me. The dragon dreams are said to affect those with the blood of the dragon, Targaryens and Blackfyres, and perhaps some of the blood of Old Valyria.
Daenys Targaryen, the Dreamer, was said to have had a dragon dream that warned the Targaryens of the Doom before it befell Valyria. It was the reason why Targaryen alone of the Dragonlords survived the Fall.
It was almost certain that most of my vivid dreams were just vivid dreams, but I wouldn't take the risk that I might forget a prophetic dream by not writing them all down.
I finished the entry with a stroke of the quill and lay it aside to go and prepare for the day. Just as I was pulling my shirt on over my head, a gaudy thing of silvery thread with the three-headed red dragon sigil of the Targaryens emblazoned on the front, when the door opened and the servant boy entered with his eyes cast to the floor. He bowed deeply when I turned to him.
I waved my hand towards my messed up sheets. "Be about your work."
"Yes, m'lord. Right away, m'lord."
I grabbed a black leather belt and fastened it about my waist, making sure that the black and red dagger sheathe lay on my left hip. I drew the dagger, which in the hands of my six year old body looked almost like a sword. Its metal was marked by the distinctive rippled pattern of Valyrian steel. The fact I had such a blade at all could be put at the feet of my father, Aerys, who was willing to give me near anything I asked for. As I left the room, I slid the beautiful blade into its sheathe.
I didn't see Aerys often, my mother was very protective of me and did her level best to hide my father's madness, but it is hard to hide what someone already knows.
"You are awake early, Little Rhaegar." Ser Jaime Lannister called out to me from his place in front of the room where I was to dine with Mother, and maybe Father too.
Little Rhaegar, he calls me, and others sometimes say the same. Like my elder brother I appear to them to be extremely intelligent, I learned to read and write and speak in record time according to the maester Pycelle, and like Rhaegar I tend towards quiet and enjoy spending my time in books. I take it as rather the compliment.
"Good morning, Ser Jaime," I replied, with a little bow.
I like Ser Jaime. He has a quick wit, and a handsome smile, and is an excellent warrior. He's not necessarily good man, I know, but I don't have it in me to dislike him, even knowing that he will kill my father. Maybe he will break his Kingsguard vows, but he will uphold others, and he has an honor to him all the same. And to tell the truth, I would put a sword in my father's back too. That man is no true king.
He crossed his arm over his breastplate and bowed slightly to me, a small mischievous quirk to his lips. He would never do such a thing in the presence of the king, but here in the hall where it was just me and him, he could present a slightly mocking bow for me to laugh at without fearing the king would take offense.
As I came close, he stopped me with a hand on my shoulder.
"You need to leave the dagger with me."
"Father is there," I said, reaching down to unlatch it from the belt. It was the only reason I would be asked to give it up.
He nodded and pushed open the door to let me in as he took the dagger. I stiffened and held myself straighter as I walked into the room. My mother, and more importantly, my father were sitting at the table.
"Good morning, mother, father."
Father scares me. Though he is only in his late thirties, he looks older, with a gaunt face and bony body. His fingernails are cracked and inches long, and he refuses to allow anyone to cut them or his hair, for fear of having any blades in his presence other than those of the Kingsguard. We don't even get knives for our meals with him.
I don't feel safe in his presence.
"Sit, Viserys," my father said, and I took my seat across from him at the table.
We ate in uncomfortable silence. Rhaella glanced between Aerys and I from time to time, but seemed willing to let it remain silent.
"How go your studies?" Aerys asked in High Valyrian, poking at one of the last remaining pieces of smoked ham on his plate with his golden fork.
"Quite well, father. I do not believe that my instructors have had anything negative to say about my learning." I spoke somewhat haltingly, only my mother and father insisted on speaking to me in High Valyrian, and I was not nearly as eloquent in it as I was the Common Tongue.
"Hm." Father swallowed the last of his food. "You will join me in the Great Hall, today."
"My husband, Viserys is not yet-"
"He will join me," father snapped at his wife, slamming his fork into the table, deforming one of the golden tines.
"As you will."
"Yes, father." I doubted it would be interesting at all, but my father's word was law for better or worse.
"Then you will join me once you have finished eating." With those words he left, taking Jaime with him, who tossed the dagger and belt to me, winking as he followed the king.
With a sigh I ate the last of my ham and excused myself from the table while Mother returned to her chambers.
The Great Hall of the Red Keep was a majestic sight, and one of my favorites of the castle. At the far end of the cavernous hall was the mountain-sized Iron Throne, the asymmetric monstrosity of a thousand bladed edges. Aerys cut himself upon it frequently. It was an ugly thing, but it had a certain beauty to it as well, a harsh beauty that symbolized everything the Seven Kingdoms are.
But what I enjoyed most were the dragon skulls that lined the walls, whether large or small or huge, they were amazing to look upon. And off to the side of the throne itself was the smallest skull of the last dragon known to have lived, barely the size of a good-sized apple.
As I entered the Great Hall from one of the side doors, I ran my hand along the teeth of one of the largest skulls. They were larger than my own dagger, and still sharp, as I learned over a year ago now.
As I presented myself before my father the king, who sent me to go stand off behind him and to his left to observe his court, my eyes kept drifting to the dragon skulls.
They would return in the not so distant future. I needed no dragon dreams to know that. All too soon the Mad King would spark Robert Baratheon's rebellion, and my sister would be born, and we would be spirited away across the sea to Essos.
I leaned against the wall and stared into the eye sockets of the largest dragon skull and let a grin settle across my face.
I can't wait to see a living, breathing dragon.