In the eyes of gods and men, few sins were as great as kin-slaying.
This truth was known even to the common folk - to fell your own kin and wet your hands with the same blood that coursed through your own veins was to blacken your name and legacy forevermore.
No one is as accursed as the kinslayer
And yet, Aemond thought as he watched Aegon tip his head back and roar with loud, ugly laughter,
I am ever and always tempted.
Returning to King's Landing had been a trial all of its own - Vhagar was yet to recover from their ordeal above Shipbreaker Bay and the days that followed, and her age-worn wings were slow to regain their strength. The flight back to the capital had been a trying, ponderous thing, and his queen of dragons had all but collapsed upon their arrival.
Aemond had not been able to show his concern - he'd scarcely managed to order the dragon keepers to ply her with cattle and soothe her with her favored melodies before the summons had arrived on the tongues of a half dozen knights, led at the helm by Ser Criston himself.
"Prince Aemond." The man had seemed ashen-faced but relieved to see him all the same, eyes assessing from head to foot and back again "Thank the gods for your safe return."
Aemond had been tempted to tell him that the gods would soon abandon them all - if they hadn't already - but chose to hold his tongue before the words could spill out.
There would be time enough for that soon, and the handful of dragonkeepers and household knights surrounding them were far from the proper audience.
"I must meet with the small council at once."
At that, Criston's smile had taken a grim edge and he swiftly gestured for a horse to be brought forward for him.
"Forgive my presumption, my prince, but that much was never in question."
The brief ride through the streets of the city had been telling. The common folk recoiled at the sight of them, flitting about in wary droves. Aemond could feel the stares burning into the back and beyond as the people acknowledged his return, and could all but taste the apprehension of the masses tainting the air.
When they arrived at the Red Keep he did not even pause to visit his own chambers and relieve himself of his riding leathers and traveling cloak despite the now hideous state they were in - were in not for his colouring, once could be forgiven for mistaking him for a peasant.
By the time he tossed open the doors to the small council chambers, Ser Criston his dogged shadow, they were all assembled and waiting for him, with his useless kingly brother at the head of the table and nursing a goblet of wine - clearly already half-drunk.
Of course.
"Aemond."
His mother's eyes had been full of emotion at the sight of him, eyes shining and shoulders trembling, and she'd looked ready to leap towards him in relief and draw him close.
For a beat, he'd felt something in him soften at the sight of her. It was enough for him to ignore the remaining five members and the manner in which they seemed to recoil at his current state.
An add, aching yearning rose in him - a momentary weakness, no doubt brought on by the ordeals he'd endured - and though he'd never admit it, Aemond would have accepted the gesture of affection from her.
Perhaps even welcomed it.
But she made no move towards him - she froze on the first step, indecision seizing her motion before she seemed to remember herself.
Her face blanked, a clean slate save for the faintest hint of apprehension that she had rarely been free of his entire life, and all he received from her in the stilted silence that followed was a half-approving nod and what might charitably have been called the ghost of a smile.
Always with appearances, even now.
The yearning he felt for her touch died, abruptly and violently, and something in his gut curdled right alongside with it.
"Brother!" Aegon crowed, voice high nasally with drink, grating in a way only he could achieve and effortlessly at that. "We were beginning to think you'd gotten lost on the way home!"
He raised his goblet as if in salute, and the rapid movement ended with wine sloshing off of the rim and splashing across the table. Lord Wylde grimaced and jerked back as the arbor gold stained the edge of his sleeve, and their grandfather shot Aegon a muted, scathing look - but he did not say a word in reprimand as he would have done before.
The days of Aegon being lightly - and rightfully - rebuked ended the moment they placed the conqueror's crown on his brow.
A fact that Aegon acknowledged, if the half-glance he shot Otto was any indicator, and
relished.
"Well?" He grinned at Aemond, unpleasant in his victory, and tilted his head leadingly. "Speak! Your king commands you!"
And Aemond spoke.
He recounted the flight to Storm's End, his talks with Lord Borros, the agreement he'd brokered in return for chaining himself to one of the blustering man's four daughter, and at last, the arrival of Lucerys the false-Velaryon.
There, he paused, taking in the expectant looks the council graced him with.
His grandfather's anticipation was almost tangible, whilst Aegon looked bored.
"Get on with it."
He inhaled lightly, resisting the urge to grind his teeth at the command, and continued.
There were no more pauses after that.
At first, there was confusion. That shifted to confusion, which grew tainted and heavy with disbelief that gave way to blatant incredulity the longer he spoke.
By the time he was finished, there was not one pair of eyes on him that was not wide with horrified bafflement.
All of them - even Ser Criston and the knights by the door - goggled at him the way one would stare at a court jester who'd dared mock a king to his face.
Aemond knew to expect it - he'd vowed to recount the whole story, from beginning to end, and even to his own ears it sounded like the height of a drunken sailor's folly. A ridiculous and witless blend of song and poor imagination... and yet it was the truth.
He'd seen it. He'd
lived it.
And he'd dreamed of the nightmare to come.
In the face of that, disbelief and ridicule and mockery were all things he could endure if it meant that they were not found wanting when the order of things as they knew it came to a glacial, deathly end.
And then Aegon tipped back his head and began to
roar with laughter, and all of that rational reasoning and good sense threatened to desert him as his blood turned to poison in his veins under the force of his black rage.
"Your grace." Grandfather began chilling, eyes flickering between Aegon and Aemond as he raised his voice over the near-deranged gales of laughter. "The prince has endured a significant ordeal-"
"I have," Aemond spat the words, hating the dismissive nature of the man's defense and knowing exactly what conclusion he was building up to in that oh-so-reasonable tone of his voice. "But I am not lessened for it, and my wits have not been lost to it."
"You've almost fooled me, then!" Aegon
cackled, and his laughter redoubled in strength. Aemond's temper continued to darken. "You flew off into the storm as Aemond the fierce, and you return now as Aemond the
Mad! Prophet of grumpkins and snarks! Gods, it's
glorious!"
Aemond the mad?
The urge to leap across the table and inflict calamity on to him was growing with every beat. He could almost hear his own blood pumping at the back of his ears, such was the force of it.
"Perhaps my king would like to express his doubts to Vhagar, then," Aemond spoke levelly, and at last, Aegon graced the world with blessed silence. His eyes grew a little wide as he paused, mouth parted in disbelief. "If mine own words are...
insufficient, mayhaps the state that of the greatest dragon of House Targaryen would suffice to prove the truth in my tale."
There was a clink of shifting armour, and he spied Ser Criston stepping up into the corner of his vision.
"Your grace, If I may?"
'Speak, Ser Criston." Alicent interjected quickly, silencing Aegon's impatient outburst. Aemond could feel her gaze on him, focused and bothersome.
"I... can not speak for the entirety of Prince Aemond's tale." The man spoke warily, without the surety that he had come to expect of him over the years. "But I can speak to Vhagar's state. The dragon has suffered - If I did not know better, I would say that she is nearing her death."
It took true effort for Aemond not to hiss at that.
Vhagar was already recovering - there would be no death. It was
inconceivable.
The words seemed to give his brother a moment's worth of pause, before the useless lout shrugged and leaned back in his chair, bringing that accursed goblet back to his lips for a heavy draw.
"And? The hoary old bitch was old and slow in our grandfather's time," He declared when he was finished swallowing his swill. "If anything, I'm surprised she didn't fall out of the skies trying to get to Storm's end. Or perhaps she
did."
Here he smiled meanly, as if sharing some great jest.
"Perhaps you took a tumble into Shipbreaker Bay, brother, and took a blow to the head along with it."
Kinslaying is a sin, Aemond reminded himself,
and would be far more trouble than it is worth.
"With respect, your grace, it is more than that," Criston argued, and Aegon frowned heavily. "Vhagar has been
wounded. Great wounds and gouges have marred her hide, and there are swathes of her scales that have been scarred. There is no question of it - Prince Aemond's mount did fly into battles against another in that storm."
With that, he fell silent.
Lord Wylde was the first to clear his throat.
"Vhagar has been wounded - and the prince Lucerys rides his own dragon, does he not? Could it not-"
"That ugly little worm with wings is not even Sunfyre's equal, let alone anything approaching the weight necessary to trouble Vhagar." Aemond strangled that imbecilic notion in its infancy. Surely there was some end to this indignity he was forced to endure? "A single swipe of her wings or a bite of her jaws and both it and its bastard rider would have been rent asunder."
They very nearly had been.
"Then perhaps there was more than one dragon."
Aemond turned away from that thought when his mother made her voice known once more.
"The rumors already whisper as much, and our enemies would see much promise in crippling our cause through Vhagar. Daemon Targaryen alone rides, and we need look no further than Ser Vaemond Velaryon's fate to know that he has no respect for the laws of gods and men both. What's to say he would not lay in wait and descend on an envoy if he so pleased?"
Maester Orwyle's eyes lit up.
"Indeed, my queen. The blood wyrm is storied for its savagery, and the veteran of a hundred battles beside. If Prince Lucerys's Arrax could not harm Vhagar, than Caraxes most certainly-"
"And just how-" Aemon began, words level and conversational, and Orwyle shut his mouth at
once. "-would I have mistaken my rogue uncle's beast for a monster beyond even my Vhagar?"
Orwyle hesitated, sweat beading his brow. He opened his mouth, closed it, and then opened it again as he tried to measure himself.
"My prince," He began, carefully pressing his hands together and shifting back in his seat. Besides him, Ser Tyland suddenly seemed more interested in looking anywhere but at him. "In the darkness of the storm, you would not have had a clear line of sight. Particularly not if you were pursuing other quarry, and was set upon in your distraction-"
"Vhagar would not miss another dragon - and certainly not
Caraxes, who she spent nearly a decade nesting with. And when we clashed, we clashed above the storm cover-"
"And-" Orwyle continued, ignoring him - which was more bravery than Aemond expected from him by far. "My prince, you were missing for over a sennight. It is entirely within reason to assume that Vhagar's wounds grounded her, and that you too did not escape unscathed."
Here, the maester began to trail off, eyes nervously flitting over his state - clothes encrusted with dirt and grime, pallor only halfway recovered, and an eye on the edge of being bloodshot.
"If you were wounded - or perhaps merely stunned from the battle..." The maester exhaled warily. "You may have... misremembered. The feverish mind can play most... merely fanciful tricks... An
ice dragon? A
girl threatening the realm entire? Visions in the
trees... surely not ... strained memory can not be trusted..."
The words continued to trail off until Orwlye seemed to lose his nerve altogether and shut his mouth, courage deserting him at last.
"'Misremembered?'" Aemond asked softly "'Fanciful tricks?'"
The room seemed to hold its breath. Aegon leaned forward in anticipation.
"... Yes, my prince."
"I see."
His fist
cracked against the wooden table with a sound akin to a splintering lance as he shot up from his seat.
They all jumped - even his grandfather, and Aemond went to speak - and then he heard it.
It was a snigger. A snort. Some unholy combination therein.
Slowly, glacially, he raised his eye to stare at Aegon.
And he saw it.
The look of joyful, petty malice he'd known from his earliest years, when the waste before him would punish him for daring to be better than him.
Dragonless. Second-born. Unworthy.
He had fought since that fateful night in Driftmark to be the better of the two, the greater - if not from the very second he'd realized that no one, not even his own
mother would ever grant him anything he did not take for himself - and yet, somehow, it was Aegon who was always raised above and given the means to look down on him.
And now Aemond had to endure that mockery while bowing his head and calling him
king.
No.
By the time the Kingsguard realized that he was moving, he was halfway around the table. By the time the members of the small council began to roar, he had reached Aegon, and by the time he was pressing down on the now wide-eyed and terrified fool's shoulder while his other hand reached for the dagger on his ill-fitting belt, his mother's panicked half-scream was too late.
Still. It was good to know what they all thought of him.
The Kingsguard closed in on him, but Aemond had already pulled away from the wretch, their father's valyrian steel dagger gripped firmly in hand.
One of Aegon's white cloaks attempted to place a hand on him - another of his drunken lickspittles - but Aemond shot him a quelling look and the gutless cretin retreated like he'd been burned.
"That's mine!" Aegon roared like a child, storming up and off his seat, but there were none in the room who were fooled by his unsightly display of authority.
Aemond could see the fear in his gaze, and it made him smirk widely.
"
I am merely indulging a curiosity I harbor for our ancestral birthright." Aemond turned to him and spoke in smooth, fluent high Valyrian. "
Unless my kingly brother can provide sufficient cause to deny me?"
Aegon looked trapped.
Weak.
Still, he opened his mouth to make a token protest - and what a joy that was.
"
I...want knife... mine."
Aemond's smirk grew and grew with every word until it culminated with a low, cruel chuckle.
You cannot even speak our mother tongue, you disgrace.
At that sound, Aegon paled and seemed to lose strength at the knees as he lowered.
None of his advisors would even look at him, and Grandfather rose from his seat and stared him down at last, a heavy frown on his face.
"That is
enough, Aemond."
"I quite agree." He turned on his heel and marched past the stunned knights. "I have had a long, trying journey, and I must rest. We shall continue this at a later time."
He had ten days, after all, and a dagger to inspect.
"My prince-"
"Aemond-!"
Protests rose to try and bar his path, but it was Aegon who silenced them.
"Let him go!" He bellowed, and Aemond heard the sound of a goblet being hurled against the stone wall. "I tire of his stench! Let him join my queen in her latest bouts of stupidity! They'll make a fanciful pair indeed!"
Aemond paused, one foot outside the chambers of the small council.
Beside him, Ser Criston paused as well.
"My prince-"
Ignoring the man's attempts to settle him, Aemond looked over his shoulder, past his mother and Grandfather and all the rest beside until he caught Aegon's gaze once more.
Somehow, his brother grew paler still.
"I am not a fool, or a liar. I am not addled, or witless, and I have not taken leave of my senses. Every word I have spoken is the truth - there is a great threat coming to the Seven Kingdoms, and your impotent denials - as true to your character as they are - will do nothing to change that."
His biting disdain landed like the blow of a whip, and Aegon recoiled in his seat.
"You-"
"Do not ever insult me again, brother. I will not be so understanding again."
And then he turned and marched away.
...
Ser Criston followed him as he marched through the hall of the Red Keep, alarmed servants scattering about as they hurried to move out of their way.
"That was ill-done, my Prince."
"
Enough, Ser Criston. It is neither the time nor your place to judge me, and I have no patience for either." He growled, and mercifully, the man knew to shut his mouth. "Tell me - how go the Lord Hand's efforts to muster men for our cause?"
A pause.
"... Passably, my prince."
Criston spoke. Aemond listened - and a part of him
seethed.
Rhaenyra and her ilk had secured the lords of the Narrow Sea and blockaded the gullet with the fleet of the prideless Velaryons. Support had risen for her among the Crownlands, the Vale, swaths of the Riverlands, and the North was likely soon to follow.
On their end, Borros Baratheon had sworn his loyalty, but his muster was said to be as slow and ponderous as his wit. Jason Lannister was little better, and the Reach was divided, with a great number of houses yet to answer their call.
His grandfather held hope and sued for time and patience, but Aemond found the silence of the Tyrells to be particularly insulting, and his mother's insistence on peace
pathetic.
Blood was already being spilled - The Brackens and the Blackwoods had taken the excuse for what it was and were already ripping each other apart, and they were far from the only houses that would leap for the chance to settle old grudges now that one so broad had been offered.
Daeron had been recalled from Oldtown days ago in response to Aemond's disappearance, but he'd yet to show his face. Worse, with his continued absence, and Vhagar's slow recovery, only Sunfyre stood to defend the capital against Rhaneyra's dragons.
One to
seven - and his brother's mount was almost as useless as the cunt who rode him, untested and full of false vigor.
The only saving grace was that Rhaenyra was too afraid to attack - doubt and wariness regarding his disappearance making her fear a trap that was not there, but her bastard had been released before Aemond had and he would surely have told her of his and Vhagar's state.
She would know soon enough that King's landing was ripe for the taking - and it was galling to acknowledge that only Lucerys's testimony of the other dangers that were to come might grant them some time to act.
And act they must, as limited as they were - If only Dreamfyre was-
He paused, and a thought occurred.
"What did he mean?"
Criston frowned, confused. "My prince?"
"Aegon. When he spoke of Halaena's...
stupidity" The word tasted foul on his tongue. "What did he mean?"
"See for yourself, brother."
Both of them snapped around, and Halaena stepped forward to greet him.
"Sister..."
He paused, taking in the sight before him.
Throughout the years, Aemond had seen Halaena in various states - almost all of them confusing and whimsical in a way unbecoming of a princess, yet he hadn't faulted her for them.
But this...
"Are you wearing
breeches?"
Helaena smiled - truly smiled, in a way so free that he could not quite remember the last time he'd seen it's like.
If he ever had at all.
"Yes, I am. It'd be far too difficult to move around, otherwise."
"'Move around?'"
"The queen has chosen to... take up arms, my prince. A sword." Criston looked pained as he spoke, something beseeching in his tone - as if her begging Aemond to intercede where he could not. "She joins the squires in their practice bouts, and she spends at least an hour a day with the Kingsguard assigned to her."
"I-
What?"
His mother allowed this?
Then he remembered rather abruptly that his mother had no say in such matters any longer, no matter how she desperately clung to that seat in the small council - she was no longer a queen.
Halaena was.
"Sister..." He paused, at a loss for words. "Why?"
Did she feel unsafe? Had the looming war scared her so? Or did Aegon-
"For the same reason you seek to place that dagger in an open flame, as you were told to."
Aemond's blood froze in his veins.
"What did you say?"
"You heard me the first time." Haleana stepped forward and wrapped her arms around him in a hug he was too stunned and horrified to protest. Her voice whispered in his ear. "You always hear me, but none of you ever listen. No matter how much I tried to tell you of my
dreams."
Dreams.
Aemond had dreamed as well, in that cave.
"You
saw."
"I did. The cold winter, and
death. The song undone." She pulled back from him, still smiling beatifically, as if Aemond's world was not being ripped apart -
Again. "I do, and I will have. All at once, and yet none at all. Not anymore."
"I-"
His answer was a whisper akin to her own, full of realization and disbelief and more questions besides.
"You don't understand, but that's alright. You've learned enough now that your eye is open where it was once closed, and that's
good." His sister's smile widened, and a light of a sort he'd never seen before seemed to glint in her eyes. "Everything is changing, Aemond. Blood and Cheese no longer hound my dreams, and black and green fade beneath frost. We all may live to die as one, but at least there's
hope where there never was before."
"
Halaena."
He tried to say more, but his tongue would not move. The words died ignobly in his throat.
Ser Criston stared between them, confused and lost.
"
What?" Aemond managed at last, and in response, her smile softened.
It grew less eerie and more gentle.
"Not now. You still have not placed that blade in a brazier. You can use my chambers while I train - the children will be pleased to see you, and we can speak tonight."
Without another word, she turned and walked away, brilliant silver hair spilling freely behind her as she went.
"Be prepared, brother. There is so much left to do."
She sounded
delighted - and Aemond was once more left in the wake of another, feeling unmoored and helpless, with thoughts that tasted of bitter, bitter
fear.
What games would the gods be playing with them now?
One chapter left with Lucerys and the Blacks, and
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