Chapter One Point One
or
My life as a SI is wrong, as I expected
There are many things you expect when you wake up in another body. Actually, that is a lie and anyone who seems to have an idea of what is going on is a liar with the proverbial pants on fire.
I do believe there are two main reasons why, at least in fiction, souls or whatever stand for them are inserted in another body. The first is a metal: a pure and smooth handwavium, with the level of purity depending on the flavor of the story. The second gives the name of god or gods, depending on the taste of the self insertee, to the handwavium.
I wasn't thinking about that when I woke up. Indeed, I had no idea it wasn't my body really, until it started moving without my input. And that is scary. It's an eerie feeling, a reverse pins and needles over your entire body. I felt numb and numbed, but I was still moving. How, I screamed. But no sound came from my throat, not a whisper and not a roar.
There was also a feeling of disconnect with the routine my body was going through. It went directly to the shower, and I never do that, as first I have breakfast. Then the body dressed itself (I noticed it was humming), and that's when I saw, in the mirror, a face looking back at me. It wasn't mine, and I would know, I just turned 21 with a completely different one. I grimaced, and the face did that too, only to adopt a look of confusion the next moment.
So, I'm not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed and I'd like to be forgiven for this, but I still didn't realize what the hell was going on. I didn't think "Oh, this is a SI, of course, that's Jaune Arc duh!" or cursed the gods for the thing that I totally obviously never ever would have ever wanted on my own. My thoughts more closely resembled a flat line that you may see on a heart monitor in a hospital, or the earth in a Flat-Earther deluded, deluded mind.
I didn't notice I was Jaune Arc, because he looked real. The skin was a good caucasian white, not shining white, and his blonde hair were actual, high school jock blonde, like his physique. For how much the guy moaned about sucking at fighting he definitely could have kicked my skinny ass anyday anytime.
As he reached a bigger area in the house, which I later learned was a living room/place to eat when there's too many people, he was greeted by a solitary feminine figure, seated at a ten seats table. She possessed lighter blonde hair, held back in a ponytail, and around her hung an air of tiredness. Her eyes were the same that I saw in the mirror, but her nose was slightly sharper. Around her neck, unutilized, lay a pair of glasses in red frame linked on the extremes by a small metallic chain. They were obviously reading glasses and the newspaper in front of her supported that theory, though why she wasn't using them is still, to this day, beyond me.
"Good morning Jaune, everything alright?" Jaune? That is probably when I started to put things together.
"Nnnnn- Yes. Yes, I just feel like I woke up with wrong feet - I mean, the wrong foot." He laughed nervously. Can you blame me?
"Well anyway, here's breakfast, or what remains of it." The woman mumbled motioning with her arms to the remaining slice of bread and the almost empty jar of red jam. "Eat something, you're a big boy." Then she pointed to the other end of the table. "Oh, and there are also cookies in that jar over there, though I know you don't like them that much."
That's where we disagreed. Cookies are never, ever bad. You can take away my body, but don't you dare touch the cookies damn it. Shut up, you cookie maniac.
I guess that's when I snapped.
"Gimme the cookie jar." I said that. I have to admit my delivery was flat though, because I could immediately see the woman eyebrows start to crease up in worry. She got up.
"Jaune, are you sure you're okay?" She approached me as you would approach a hurt baby deer the day after you've watched Bambi. It was enough to briefly snap me from the immense concentration required to speak.
"What? I'm fine, mom, I'm fine! Don't worry -" Jaune started speaking, panicked. I interrupted him, recovered. "Just gimme the cookie jar." My apparent mom was obviously bewildered but damn it, if my wish for cookies was the only thing that allowed me to speak then goddamn it if I don't walk away with the cookie jar in my own stupid hands.
She silently walked to the object of my desire, took it and brought it to me. I think I said something to reassure her, but there was too much confusion in my head to understand the details of what was going on. In the end though, I know that I ended up bolting toward my room.
I vaguely remember bumping into a person, getting a shrill "I hate you Jaune!" in thanks, reaching my room and then closing the door, sliding down it as if it was a poorly written romance movie and I just had a conversation with my crush.
"Wha-what's going on today...?" Jaune muttered. "Ugh, I know I shouldn't have eaten those - wait, what did I eat yesterday again?" Jaune was a very absent minded person, if you recall. Scratch his head and all that.
We had a conversation then, which I'm unsure how to frame exactly without making it seem as if we were crazy then, because it was literally Jaune talking to himself. It started somewhat like this.
"H-hello?" I tried. He literally jumped, somehow locking the door and jumping under the cover of his bed in one fluid movement.
"Oh, oh noes, I'm hearing voices, I'm- I'm hearing voices, this is third grade all over again..."
"Third grade? W-wait, that's not important, what's up with this stupid reaction huh!? Where did you get it from, some shitty B-Rate movie? I'm the one who's freaked out here, grow up a little!"
"Oh, oh noes, the voice inside my head is dad. Oh this is my worst nightmare, please wake up please wake up please wake up-"
"Okay, I understand you're freaked out too. I get it, it makes sense, rationally. But I'm here and I'm real, so deal with it." To be honest, I'm not usually this edgy. Really, I'm not. Oh, really?
"F-f-fine. Then tell me one thing I don't know. I can't know, I mean."
"Two plus two equal four."
There was a beat of silence, so I added: "And my name is Mike."
"...I don't believe in you. You're not real. Also, you're an ass if you are." I think the body started trembling here. Jaune Arc, deep down, had already accepted my existence, just not in so many words.
At this point, I had a firmer grasp on the situation whereas I could actually understand that yes, this was Jaune Arc, yes, I was actually here and I was also thanking and cursing the hands that were probably writing this story because it was nice being here, but god I suck, why couldn't it be a smoother transition jeez. At least, that's what I assumed was happening at first, though that raised questions about my existence that, like all my problems, I would have preferred to shuffle into a dark cupboard in the recesses of my mind. I couldn't this time though. It weighted very heavily on my mind and my train of thought went from the realization that I was probably writing myself to the understanding that, well, that wasn't possible!
The fact that I actually thought that invalidated my own theory! And I realized that even then, while having that nonsensical discussion with Jaune. All the other Self Insert I read never actually thought they were writing themselves, thus by this unassailable logic, I was certainly, probably, maybe really existing. That thought brought me a blanket of security, of mental health to be more correct, that I, at the time, really, really needed. But I was right, as I'm writing this right now, after the facts, safe in my house on my computer. I know it's an extraordinary statement, so I'll keep writing to, perhaps, provide the extraordinary proof such a statement requires.
"When will the override happen jeez..." I thought to myself. But I couldn't really think to myself anymore, could I?
"WHAT! Over- WHAT! Oh no no no, you can't you can't, oh I need a doctor, I need a doctor, MUM!"
"I was joking, joking! Don't call your mom! I mean, I should have overwritten your soul by now, really, but it didn't happen so tough shit, we'll probably be linked for all eternity like, like oh I don't know, mmm, oh right! Soulmates! Errr, maybe not soulmates." We are not soulmates. We really aren't. As they say here, no homo.
"What. Are. You. Talking. About!" Well, to be fair to him, that must sound like a lot of bull to anyone who's not into fanfiction really, never mind from another universe. "Oh shit, it got me to talk back and I just realized that."
Knock knock.
"Jaune? Did you call for me?"
"Oh shit, please Jaune, please hide me, don't tell her please please - "
"And why should I listen to you?"
"Jaune? Are you talking to your mum like that?"
"What? No, no, I'm just talking with -"
"I CAN HELP YOU BECOME A HUNTSMAN!"
"... myself."
And that's how me and my buddy Jaune became friends for life. A lie, really. I had no idea how to help him become a huntsman, but who cares, I'm sure I can bullshit my way through it with some vague RWBY knowledge, right? I should have started to hate you so long ago.
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