I sat at the table, tapping my fingers and considered my options. My future. My choices. So many things to consider, everything spiralled out of control so quickly.
Weeks ago, I had been shoved into a locker as just bullied girl in school. I burst out of that locker with super strength, healing, longevity, a portal to Shadow Dimension, Shadow Sight, and energy that could copy objects and protect me, some sort of effect on my hormone levels, and just recently the ability to burst into flame. A real lottery of powers.
Then, in little more than a day, I found out Sophia's identity, got on the bad side of the Protectorate, lost touch with my father, decided on becoming a vigilante, and got in league with a supervillain.
And all that doesn't even begin to compare to the spiralling acid dream my life had become in the following weeks with Card Trick and his sister.
Phil emerged from my room with a tired look on his face. "Vista will be fine for now, but you will have to return her to the PRT very soon before they get nervous."
"Will she be safe there?" I asked.
"I doubt there are many places she would be safe in," Phil said, a strangely sad tone touching it. I raised an eyebrow at him. He didn't seem to pick up on it.
"So," I begin. "What do you think I should do from here?"
"That is entirely up to you, Miss Hebert," Phil said. "I would suggest returning Vista before going to see Coil, however."
I took in a deep breath and heaved a sigh.
"You seem troubled." He walked to the other side of the table and put his hands together before smiling at me kindly. "Is it anything I can help you with?"
"Not unless you know what I want more than I know," I responded dryly.
"Ah, confliction of options then? I find it helps to visualize things to put them in perspective. Luckily, I happen to carry just the thing for that." Phil reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a small box. He opened up one side and shook out a deck of cards into one hand. I looked up at him to see if this was a joke about Card Trick or not, but then I looked closer at the cards. Very few were the same. The backs were different on almost all of them, some had dirt on them and others had water stains.
"I like to pick up cards whenever I see them lying around," he quickly explained before sitting across from me at the table. "Now, can you tell me what it is you want? In simple terms."
I considered that for a long moment. What, exactly, was it I wanted. It felt like I wanted too many things, all for different reasons.
"I don't know," I admitted after a moment.
"Well, how about being a vigilante?" Phil suggested. "While your reputation of being powerful is pretty well cemented now, not many people are sure whether to call you hero or villain yet. You can still go either way, or you can continue towards vigilante."
"I… want to do good," I stated.
"For whom? Most villains do good for themselves and their power, heroes do good for the city against villains, vigilantes for the people and against everyone."
"Um, can you put one down for each?"
"Very well," Phil dropped three cards face down. "Now, as I recall you had something of a disagreement with one of the Wards?"
"Shadow Stalker," I answered immediately.
"Would I be wrong to presume you still want to see her harmed for her transgressions against you."
"Yes."
Phil dropped another card.
"How about your father? You would like to get in steady contact again, correct." I nod. Another card drops.
"And what about long-term goals?" Phil asks. I bite the inside of my cheek.
"I want to stop Armistice and make the city safer."
"Admirable." Another card joins the other.
"I want to know more about my powers and exactly what I can do." Another card.
"This Card Trick fellow," Phil mentions. "What are your plans with him?"
I frown. I had agreed to help him find his sister in the past, but his sister had taken over the E88 now. That made things more complicated. I didn't even know what it was Card Trick really wanted. He could want to stop his sister, or he might be hoping to save her from herself. That last one seems a lot like something Card Trick would say, despite how it sounded.
"I want to help him," I said tentatively. "Depending on what it is he wants."
"Alright," Phil dropped another card and shuffles the mismatched deck in his hands. "Now let's think about what you can do for each one."
"First, you can join the Wards. You are currently still in a position to make that a reality, for however long that lasts. With that, you can get back in contact with your father, leverage to have Shadow Stalker legally punished, explore your powers, and become a hero." Phil moved four cards for each respective goal towards me and pulled the remaining towards him.
"On the other hand, you will lose many of the freedoms you enjoy now, you likely won't play much of a part in making the city safer, won't be able to assist Card Trick, and might even be forced to accept the armistice, when she proposes it.
"Alternatively, you could continue to back Coil and get to be the vigilante, help Card Trick, learn more about your powers, and get to continue to operate freely and with good funding. But you likely won't be seeing your father anytime soon and you may never get the revenge on Shadow Stalker." He shifted the cards again and checked to make sure I'm following.
"Finally, you go out and hurt Shadow Stalker yourself, become a villain, maybe leave Coil's employ and join some other villain group, help Card Trick, fight Armistice, and perhaps help people here and there. You won't see your father again and you may not learn of your power depending on how it goes.
"What if…" I considered the new position of the cards carefully. It was almost like a game, trying to find a scenario were I maximize my gains compared to losses. "I made a deal with New Wave? Joined them in exchange for the legal work against Shadow Stalker."
"... With a large degree of speculation? If New Wave lets you join with your past, if they can handle the legalities, if the PRT doesn't enforce some strict parol on you, and if they don't accept the truce? Then you get everything except helping Card Trick and only a slight possibility of New Wave taking on Armistice with the force you need. It is has a really good outcome, but it's also a massive gamble."
I raised a hand up and started chewing on the tip of my thumb thoughtfully. I threw the Wards option out immediately. Far, far too many things I didn't want to have to deal even after the Sophia issue. Which left me with the other three choices.
I rose from my seat and grabbed the mask I had set on the side of the table before fixing it in place.
"I suppose I better go bring Vista back then. But can you bring me a few pieces of paper first, I need to write a few letters."
***
I walked up to the PRT building carrying Vista bridal style along the street. More or less as expected, Armsmaster drove up the street to meet me before I even got close. Maybe about two blocks away, but still with a clear line of sight.
Armsmaster was off his motorcycle before it even came to a stop. As his motorcycle parked itself he held out his halberd and took a stance in front of me. I stopped and looked at him.
"Shadow Paladin," he said evenly. "Care to explain?"
"Armistice knocked her out in an attempt to kidnap her, like she did with Aegis," I explain calmly.
"Who is this Armistice?"
"I explain it all here." I shift my hold on Vista so I could hold up the paper I had been holding in my hand. It was a little crumpled, but still legible. "But before I hand her and it over, I have to ask. Do you know who I am?"
Armsmaster hesitated for a long moment before saying, "We have evidence that strongly suggests your identity, yes."
I took a deep breath and let out a sigh. "Alright." I step forward and present Vista to him. Cautiously, he puts his halberd aside and takes the Ward in his arms.
"I'm going to go see my father tomorrow," I tell him as soon as Vista and the paper were out of my hands. "Don't cause problems for me, and I won't cause problems for you."
"I can't cut deal with you, particularly with the wrap sheet you are growing. Especially after the fight at Medhall you seemingly caused. Not to mention a break of certain rules."
"I wasn't asking. I'm telling you, I'm going to go see my father tomorrow. Don't make problems."
Before he could respond, I turn and jump down an alley, disappearing into the shadows.
***
I slid my letter to my father in his mailbox and close the rusty metal door with a sigh. When I turned around, a long black car was idling across the street. I took a deep breath and then walked towards it.
"Taylor," Coil greeted me as I slipped into the car. "I'm glad to have a chance to speak to you again."
"I'm sure," I answered dryly. I rolled my shoulders, my bones popping slightly. "So before we get started, I want to know what the hell happened out there. Why did you send the info packet out early, and why does Armsmaster seem to think I started the whole fight. I thought the point was to make the ABB seem responsible."
"Two reasons," Coil answered calmly. "For the moment, I'm going to have to ask you to assume that a combination of my powers and other Thinkers available to me allows to predict future events with a reasonable degree of accuracy. Can you accept that?"
"That fine, for now." I cross my arms and wait for him to continue.
"Thank you. So as to your first question, I saw things play out very poorly. Armistice takes Vista, Bitch, and Clockblocker. And obviously, that kind of firepower and mobility would be a nightmare. Things aren't that great right now, but they're a great deal more salvageable than the alternative.
"Secondly, the reason the PRT will be thinking you caused the fight and released the info packet is because we need them to. A threat as large as Armistice is going to need a strong truce with all the capes in the city. And any additional animosity between the heroes and the ABB would be detrimental. Better you take the blame and get forgiven than the ABB spit in the Protectorate's face.
"Does that all sound reasonable to you?"
"Sure, it sounds reasonable," I answer bitterly. "But that doesn't change the fact that what happened tonight was supposed to be a controlled situation. Not whatever that was."
"No plan survives contact with the enemy Paladin," Coil replied sharply. "I will endeavour to keep you more informed in the future, but these things will happen."
I sigh and shake my head. "Fair enough, what now?"
"Now I give my offer. For the last few weeks I have given you near complete freedom and resources on top of that. I did this as a show of mutual trust and respect. Now, the fight against Armistice is going to be unconventional, but I do believe our best bet is quickly take over her territory before she musters up all the forces she needs."
"Territory?" I ask.
"Yes, already have the Undersiders preparing. After some talks with the ABB I hope to present a united front of pressing into and around the current Empire territory. Including you."
"What do you want me to do."
"Quite simply? Be a vigilante. Patrol and protect your territory, save the people from Armistice, garner their support while the PRT is too busy to deal with you."
He started rattling off about plans and possibilities. I only half listened as I considered what he was asking of me. More than anything, I was more concerned it wasn't going to be fast enough. Every second wasted is time Armistice could be making more pseudo capes. It wasn't a bad plan, I just had to wonder if it was going to be fast enough.