Once again, writing this took longer than I liked, but I have excuses! I got sick last weekend and just about everything I wrote then had to be rewritten into something that made sense. This version too, I'm not completely satisfied with the results, but since my computer broke down and I almost lost this I decided that this was good enough.
Many thanks to nitewind for betaing this final part of prologue!
Hakuno's room
I stare at the small time display at the corner of my eye. About fifteen minutes until they come to get me. My charge is at 100%.
I am well rested.
I have been cooperative until now.
I might be able to take down whoever they sent to get me and then escape into the laboratories, then it would just be a matter of evading capture until I can make it out. I would have an edge at that with my minimap and sensors.
It should be possible to escape.
But then what? Clearly, this company is great. I wouldn't be able to escape them. Besides, ASSW's like me are rare. How long could I go before this body would have to be repaired? Or recharged? I know the charge level doesn't affect my vitality, after all the day before yesterday I fell asleep despite having over three fourths of my charge left, but what will happen when that goes to zero? Better not find out.
So, the course is clear. I have to stay with the Kirijo Group.
And that means letting them look into my mind.
I still don't like it.
But as I have no choice, I must just grit my teeth and let it happen. Like before.
But this time, no-one dies. It's a small relief.
And then, on the clock, the door opens and Shuji Ikutsuki walks in.
"Good morning, Praetor!" he greets me enthusiastically. It feels insulting, he knows what I'm about to go through today. I just nod at him in response. He frowns a little at that, but then shrugs it off.
"Well, we'll be doing the check in one of the old labs in the ASSW Engineering department. I will personally conduct the check with some researchers assisting me. Oh, and Mr. Kirijo himself wants to oversee the process. Knowing him, he'll also want to talk to you before we begin."
"About what?" I ask him as we depart the room.
"He is probably going to apologize about this whole thing again. Despite his appearance he is a bit… Well, weak minded is probably not the right word," Shuji explains while we wait for the elevator, "but he is smart enough to understand that this is necessary. We can't have something like you walking around and not knowing if you are in working order or not. At the same time, he feels very guilty that this has to be done."
"I would not call that a weakness," I respond. The image Shuji gives me fits very well with what I have learned of the man myself. I can't help but suspect a little that maybe it's intentional.
The elevator doors open and we step in. Shuji presses the ASSW Engineering Department's button and then turns to me.
"In a normal man it might not be. But Mr. Kirijo is the CEO of an multimillion international company. At that level, it is very much a weakness."
"If he doesn't have the heart for his profession, then why is he still the CEO? I understand that it is a family business, but couldn't someone else in the family do it, or maybe he could just appoint someone he trusts?"
"That is a good point, but I'm afraid the answer is personal to him. What I can say, is that his wife and parents are dead and his daughter becomes eighteen years old in a few months."
So most of the family was dead. Didn't Shuji mention that the previous CEO died when the laboratories exploded ten years ago? That was probably Kirijo senior. And that was an interesting tidbit that Takeharu has something more than familial obligations keeping him in play. Not that I could do anything with that information now, but I with little research I could…
Wait, what am I doing? This is not the Grail War. There is no Information Matrix to be filled here. And even if I do fill one about him, what use would it be when it's not just me against him?
Gah, I'm just… dealing with this the only way I know. I shouldn't do that, this kind of thinking doesn't work here. The Grail War was a special cage match where everyone was everyone's enemy in the end. Takeharu Kirijo is not an enemy. Sure, he is doing something I don't like, but he has to. I should understand necessity.
I take a deep breath to focus myself. This draws a raised eyebrow from Shuji, because I shouldn't need to breathe. I merely have the function so as not to draw attention if I'm around civilians.
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ASSW Engineering department
We arrive at the laboratories. They are a bit farther from the elevators than the Maintenance rooms, but in contrast this corridor is a lot cleaner. Probably because it is not used as much. Shuji again opens the locked door with his keycard and again he allows me to enter first.
This room is large and open. The wall furthest from the door several has large machines set up against it and numerous screens hanging from an extendable scaffold on the ceiling. At the center of the room is a large pod reminiscent of the one I've been using for a few nights now. The seating is the same armchair style, but it has numerous cables leading to it and plugging in around the area that would support my neck.
Takeharu and Gerulf are standing next to the pod. They both greet me as I step into the room. Gerulf is still enthusiastic, while Takeharu seems tense, though he relaxes slightly as I greet them back.
"Ikutsuki, make the final preparations with professor Friedemann, I would like to discuss something private with Praetor," Takeharu says, just as Shuji predicted, and we then retire to the empty corridor.
"So, what do you think Praetor?" Takeharu asks as soon the door closes behind us.
"I still don't like this. Nothing besides my occasional balance mishaps point at there being anything wrong with my programming," and I am sure that is only because I have yet to figure out walking without feet, "still, I can understand your motivations and… accept them, though I will hold a grudge against you for this." I declare. It's a compromise at best. I am clearly the one who gets the least out of this, but it's all I get.
"… Its probably the best I can ask. I do hope you will find it in yourself to forgive me in time," Takeharu nods at my words.
"I doubt it. I am going to be paranoid about everything afterwards, you know. I don't really believe that you won't install something in me. Maybe it's just an emergency shutdown. Maybe it's something that enforces obedience. Anyway, I am going to doubt my reactions to everything."
"I assure you the latter won't happen. Not only do I find it extremely loathsome option, but considering your developed personality, it might irreparably damage you. I am going to personally check Ikutsuki's work so that there will be no controls installed." Takeharu speaks with conviction, I don't think he is lying. But that is only one thing I won't have to worry about.
"So the shut-down command is a given, huh?" I ask, though it's more rhetoric.
"Of some sort, yes."
"Well… it's not something I like having over me. How are you going to use it?"
"Exactly as you said. An emergency shutdown in case you malfunction."
"… Not going to use it to enforce orders?"
"What use would that be? We can only shut you down. As I said before, truly modifying you can damage you. In your core there is a Plume of Dusk, you remember them from the first day, right? It's one of the few working Plumes we have left, if it's damaged, we lose an unmatched resource. And since we can't even reuse Plumes, it is in our best interests to ensure that the ones in use are preserved. So, we
cannot forcibly change you," Takeharu clearly emphasizes the last point, "thus, to get your loyalty, we have to use same means as with our other employees. After you are cleared from this, we will offer you work in Kirijo Group with all it entails and certain privileges: regular pay, a place to live, even a chance to live among humans, though you will have to keep your artificial nature secret."
This… is a good offer. And it makes sense too.
"That is a good offer…" I admit, "but what kind of work would it be? I, well, I know I am a 'weapon', but... I do not want to limit myself to that." I do not really fancy the idea of more fighting.
"I can understand your reluctance, even though it is shame to lose your combat ability… But this is a discussion for later. Perhaps after Ikutsuki clears you. If you really don't want to fight, the combat tests should be lessened."
"I would like that," I nod, perhaps a little eagerly. And then my rising mood plummets as Takeharu opens the laboratory door again. I look into the empty corridor behind me.
I can still escape. Initiating scan…
Guess it can't be put off for any longer. Surveillance systems detected, human presencex8 detected
I grit my steel teeth and take a deep breath as I approach the pod. Shuji and Gerulf offer some encouragement as I pass them, but I don't really listen. I only have eyes for that chair.
Somehow I'm reminded of the last stairs to the Holy Grail, the ones I had to climb alone.
Heh, I wish Saber could slip in here with me again.
I sit down on the chair and instantly feel something on the back of my neck.
I miss her.
…
Connecting cables.
Online Confirmed.
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Takeharu POV, ASW Engineering department
"…Connection terminated, cables off," Ikutsuki declares with a final click of keyboard. Praetor immediately snaps her eyes open and leaps out of the chair, one hand groping the nape of her neck–making sure that the cables really are off. After finding just bare synthetic skin, she relaxes slightly and takes a bit to focus herself. Or maybe to check if she feels any different.
I signal the others to give her a minute, as we aren't in a hurry anymore. With the emergency override command in place, she was as safe as could be.
"My… It's done then? You added the command in me?" Praetor asks after a while, her posture tense.
"Yes, the emergency override was the only command we programmed into you," I reassure her.
"Ooh, but since it turned out you lacked just about all programming, we also put in few essentials you lacked!" Friedemann adds with a cheer, which is a mistake.
"Wha-, Add? You said it was just that-!" Praetor snaps, her voice hostile. Friedemann, however, just raises his hands in a placating gesture.
"Peace, miss Praetor, peace! As I said they are ASSW essentials. And they are programs, not commands! You choose to use them, not us."
"What kind of programs?" Praetor asks warily.
"The best kind! There is the Orgia Mode, which basically overclocks your everything, and an aim assist, which should help you with firearms," Ikutsuki giggles at Friedemann's choice of words, "hmm. Anyway, they are basics that every ASSW has. We suspect you lacked them because you are not meant to be a direct combat unit." We had had a little debate over that, in fact. I thought that since Praetor had displayed reluctance to become a weapon, we shouldn't force the issue, but Ikutsuki and Friedemann had raised some good points in their favor, like need for test results for future research.
Besides, they can always be removed later.
"Even if they are basic things, you should have asked! I shouldn't have to remind you that this is my mind we are talking about!" Praetor exclaims, but she isn't as hostile as before. Just angry.
"Our apologies for that, miss Praetor," I apologize to her, "But, shall we move to a more comfortable setting? I believe a small reprieve would be fine before we continue your testing?"
Praetor lets out a long breath with her hands folded across her chest before answering.
"Yes… Let's do that." I smile at her reassuringly.
"Actually, I do believe we could take this outside. It is a beautiful day and I believe you haven't been outside yet? While the nature here at Yakushima isn't at its best in this season, it is still a beautiful place." This catches Praetor's attention.
"Out… side? Yes! That's fine with me!" She exclaims eagerly. I'm surprised at her reaction, but considering it would be her first time outdoors, it should actually be expected. Again I can't but marvel at her humanity.
"Well, while that's all good for you, I should go and prepare the rest of the tests: get a gun ready for her and prepare the testing chamber. So, excuse me," Gerulf declares and leaves the room with a stride. Well, he is finally getting what he wants, I'm not sure how to feel about that. He is good at his job, but I feel a bit uneasy when he starts talking about weapons with such fervor.
"Shall we go then?" I ask Ikutsuki and Praetor, while discreetly signaling to the security teams nearby with the remote in my pocket. I'm actually pretty sure Praetor can detect the gadget, but I don't want to be blatant about it.
Praetor nods eagerly, before something seems to dawn to her and she schools a happy, but less overt expression on her face.
Did she… get embarrassed?
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Hakuno's POV, Kirijo Compound courtyard
It is hard to believe it's still February when the sun shines so brightly on the cloud free sky and the forest is vibrant green. The temperature is around 15 degrees Celsius… I can't remember if that is exceptionally hot, in the Moon Cell things like temperature didn't really matter unless they were about mortal combat.
But I shouldn't think of that place now.
This is the first time I am really outside in the real world. The first time I truly see the sun! The first time I see the sky! The first time I feel the wind! The first time I really see a natural forest! It's all so colorful, so great, so, so…
Underwhelming.
Yes, I will always treasure these first moments of genuine nature I have witnessed, but everything feels a bit muted.
I see the sun, but my vision adjusts so I'm not blinded.
I feel the wind, but it's just a slight pressure on me.
I see the forest, but I don't smell the greenery.
I am haunted by the authenticity of SE.RA.PH. and my current limitations.
I have been blinded by the glare of the sun.
I have looked at the sky and seen hints of something beyond.
I have felt the wind caress my hair.
I have smelt fresh foliage.
Ah, how I have been spoiled during my eight weeks.
Still, I should just enjoy the scenery, beauty is still beauty after all. I lean back on my deck chair and fold my hands under my head. I actually feel the sun now, the black spandex really absorbs it, heating up my body. Shuji lounges similarly on another chair, but Takeharu has taken a normal chair and speaks into a phone about something related to Kirijo Group's new product. He has been on the phone since we left the lab, a CEO has a lot of work.
Shuji, on the other hand, seems relaxed, he even sent an intern to get chilled drinks for him and Takeharu, as I don't need to drink.
Which is really irritating.
"So, Praetor –I can call you that, right?" Shuji suddenly states, "Given a thought of what you are going to do after this? I heard from Takeharu that you are not that keen on the idea of being a 'weapon'."
"That's right," I close my eyes, partly out of irritation. I thought I could have more time to think about this. "I don't really have an idea. Perhaps I could get a basic education of sorts? I know I have a high school level knowledge now, but I can't really do many jobs with just that?"
"Mmm. That's right. Finished education is really needed to get to anywhere in society these days. Even with the Kirijo backing… Your options would be limited," Shuji sips on his drink, "So, naturally you would be interested in finishing school. As it happens, the Kirijo Group does own a high school and I am its chairman."
"So it would be easy to transfer me in and get me a free pass on things like sports and health checkups," I see where this is going, "But?"
"Gekkoukan High School is located on Tatsumi Port Island. You remember that there was a Kirijo Group laboratory there? Well, it was also the main deployment location for Anti-Shadow Suppression Weapons."
Well, that doesn't sound good.
"That was because of Tartarus. It is a sort of nest of Shadows, meaning that there are a lot more of those monsters present there than anywhere else, making the Dark Hour especially dangerous."
"So if I went there, I would be in considerable danger when the night comes?"
"Yes. As is everyone else who is active during the Dark Hour. That is why, after we lost the ASSW's, we created the Specialized Extracurricular Execution Squad, S.E.E.S. for short. It is made up of what few Persona users we could gather." At this Shuji looks me in the eyes. What is-
"The problem is that the S.E.E.S. members are just teens and that there are just two of them. They can't be everywhere at once, which is evidenced by the increasing amount of Lost appearing in the city." At this he hands me a report from a folder he had picked up when we left the lab.
The report details something called the Apathy Syndrome. Apparently when a Shadow attacks an unprotected human, they either destroy or devour their minds, leaving behind a zombie like shell of a human that doesn't do anything anymore. They have no minds of their own, no emotions, and no wants. If left alone they just die without doing anything. There is no known cure.
"Mr. Kirijo's daughter Mitsuru Kirijo has been fighting Shadows since a very young age, most of that alone as Persona users are exceedingly rare. A few years ago, however, she managed to recruit a few middle schoolers: Akihiko Sanada and Shinjiro Aragaki. The latter, however, suffered an accident in the line of duty which led to the death of a civilian. He couldn't take the guilt and left the group. From what I have heard of him since… He isn't doing that good."
More reports. A redhead young woman that somehow reminds me of Rin Tohsaka. A white haired boy with a cocky grin. A brooding boy with a beanie. The files aren't complete, but they have a few things about them.
Mitsuru wants to help her father, who feels that the situation in Tatsumi Port Island is the Kirijo Group's fault. Something to do with the laboratory there?
Akihiko is an orphan who wants to feel powerful, and fights because of that.
Shinjiro's file is as Shuji said, but the names are crossed out. There are a lot of notices of him skipping school.
"I understand you do not want to fight, and I respect your opinion. But the truth is that the S.E.E.S. could really use a hand. The two of them try their best, and they have done well in their situation. But if we had more manpower we could do so much more. For example, Tartarus: it is impossible to climb it alone, there are too many Shadows there. But even with just a group of three Persona users, it would be possible to study the lower floors and maybe find something we can use against Shadows. Maybe even find clues for healing the Apathy Syndrome. But we need power for that. The power of an ASSW would really make a difference."
…I see.
Indeed, as I read through the files, I can think of how having someone like me could help them.
The old knight gives me a grandfatherly smile and asks me to learn something from my battles.
There will be risks… but if I could help, should I turn away?
"'Keep on fighting' only if you ask the Holy Grail this, I will let you pass," the miracle doctor, Twice H. Pieceman declares with absolute surety.
I will not like it… but is that reason enough to forsake others?
Only the winning Master may leave: Shinji/Dan/Alice/Gatou/Julius/Rin/Leo/Twice disintegrates before my eyes.
My final moments in the Holy Grail flash in my mind. That feeling, that surety of 'I am doing the right thing.'
Julius gives me a teary smile as his finally accepts death.
I-
The small, hesitant smile on Rani's lips
I, could I do that again?
Takeharu POV, Kirijo Laboratories
I watch Praetor walk inside with a heavy heart. The decision is weighing heavily on her. Once she is out of hearing range, I look at Ikutsuki.
"I saw what you did to her." He doesn't look surprised at my words.
"Of course you did," he answers lightly. How can he say it like that?
"That's it? You just emotionally blackmailed her into putting her life into jeopardy, after she clearly stated she didn't want to do that!" I snap at him. He just smiles at me.
"I didn't lie to her. Well, I left some details out of Aragaki's file, but they weren't important for this."
"You manipulated her!"
"We
need her. Besides, you read her file. The moment she learned of S.E.E.S.'s situation she would have helped of her own will, I just gave her the information now."
"But-!"
"But nothing! Mr. Kirijo, no, Takeharu. I am not proud of doing this, but it had to be done. Apathy Syndrome cases are increasing, and Mitsuru is growing restless with the lack of results. She might do something reckless if this continues, it is best that she has more backup than just Akihiko."
He is right. I know my daughter. But this still feels wrong.
"Besides, no matter how lifelike she is, in the end she is a machine created for a purpose."
Again with that. I think I used that reasoning myself too, when I first met her. She is a machine with a purpose.
I'm not sure I can think like that anymore.
"That's cold mindset," I weakly remark.
"But necessary, if we mean to destroy the Dark Hour," Ikutsuki adjusts his glasses and looks me in the eye, "I wish this wasn't necessary either, but I see no other way. If we don't get reinforcements soon, I'm afraid Mitsuru might try something rash to change the status quo. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to prepare Praetor's combat tests." I watch in silence as Ikutsuki departs.
He is right. I know my daughter. Tartarus taunts her with its existence every night.
I hope I won't regret this later.
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Hakuno's POV, ASW testing chambers, Dark Hour
I haven't really paid attention to this before, as I've been asleep, but the Dark Hour is pretty creepy.
Moonlight turns green, water turns into blood, normal machines stop, humans are encased in coffins, and Shadows appear.
I make a distinction between normal machines, as the effect doesn't affect machinery equipped with Plumes of Dusk like the ASSW's.
This testing chamber also has a Plume of Dusk integrated with its systems, as do several other systems in the ASSW department.
Like the lights, not that it matters to me since I have a night vision. But it lets the humans who are not in coffins observe the tests. "The humans" being Takeharu and Shuji. Apparently the ability to move during the Dark Hour is almost as rare as an ability to use a Persona, though Shuji said he gained the ability artificially. There is probably a reason why they don't have more people go through the same treatment.
I briefly entertain the idea of Takeharu doing it so he doesn't have to pay scientists for the extra hour.
"We are ready Praetor, you can do it whenever you want," Shuji's voice comes from the speakers around the room. I nod in the control room's direction.
So, I should have the program for an Evoker already installed, but how do I use it? I got an arming code from Gerulf before he was incapacitated, but how do I use it? Do I just speak it? No wait, all these programs have been like using Code Casts. So something like that…
Summoning something…
Maybe like using a Command Seal? What did that feel like again? I did only ever use one…
Focus.
There, I feel something.
Or more like, I feel myself, if that makes any sense.
Its building up. My head hurts.
Initiate summoning sequence, the message flashes in my eyes. The arming code!
"Alea Iacta Est" I declare. The Roman theme continues, but I don't disapprove.
The message disappears. My head hurts.
Evoker.exe activated, another message appears, but I ignore it as another feeling overtakes me and sheer dread seizes my mind.
I!
It's just like in the Holy Grail!
I'm being erased! The program, was it a trap?!? Is this the Dagger Jewel all over again?
No! I feel my existence quiver.
I refuse to disappear! The feeling stops.
No matter the pain!
No matter the fear!
I refuse! I refuse!
And then,
the sound of breaking glass washes everything away and a blue light illuminates the room, focusing into a human form before me.
Thou art I
Golden hair curls into a bun, with a single antenna pointing up at its base.
Is this?
And I art thou.
A red dress and a transparent skirt take form.
Who else could it be?
You are my Master
Green eyes open.
A Persona is a manifestation of a person's mentality, a construct that helps them against hardships.
and I am your Saber.
A large sword, shaped like a tongue of flame, appears in its hands.
Of course, a protecting construct of mine would take that form. After all, she has always protected me and stood by my side to the bitter end.
A perfect simulacrum of Nero Claudius Caesar Augustus Germanicus gives me a smile and embraces me.
And for the first time since Moon Cell, I feel safe.
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Author's notes: Lots of introspection here. Feels awkward, but I hope its good enough. Also, Persona!Saber, I have wanted to write that one for a while. The summoning scene is what I'm most anxious about in this chapter anyway, it still feels like it lacks gravity. Well, I'll rewrite it if I need to.