Chapter 1:
Miquella is mine and mine alone, a deep resonating voice that Miquella did not know growled. Miquella, himself, drifted out of time and memory, sleep pulling his mind away to walk in the land where nightmares barely tread.
A mother, her head of pure gold, cradled him to her bosom, hushing him as she rocked.
A father, strong of form, shared golden light and incantation, making him laugh joyously.
A sister, head of fairest red, held him in her arms as he cried for her.
A tree of promise, of a promise unfulfilled.
Then a formless mother reached her bloodsoaked tendrils out and caught Miquella as he hung crucified like his mother, helpless, caught in the moment of apotheosis, and that mother, formless as it was, saw a vessel.
And thus, Miquella, the youngest Empyrean screamed with none to hear but the one that took delight in his torment.
Miquella's existence was pain. A deep, slithering feeling in his marrow, twisting like his blood was a sinuous creature of its own mind. Miquella heaved, bile laden with blood dribbling from his mouth. Cursed blood spilled down his throat as much as he heaved, until the blessed sleep of St. Trina caught him and pulled him down into purple mist.
Memories played over his mind, blending in time with the ebb and flow of the nausea that clawed at his guts with gnarled teeth. His guts seemed to squirm within his viscera like maggots and bloodflies. Miquella felt stretched, drawn-out, quartered, and he could feel the tears form at the edge of his vision despite his lack of sight.
Dearest Miquella. You must abide alone a while. A voice crooned softly, and Miquella shuddered, curling in on himself, holding himself close.
Bit by bit, lucid thought crept into his drifting mind. Where was Malenia? Miquella wanted to shout, to scream. Such utterances were strangled within his childish throat before they were even given form. Instead, Miquella choked on blood, and gasped in heaving breaths of feeble air.
A pale hand settled on stony tile, flesh parting beneath his hands like butter. Miquella crawled out into the world, the blood on the tile staining his tiny hands crimson and black.
Where was Malenia?
"Malenia?" Miquella whispered hoarsely into the darkness. He wasn't a true child, but now more than ever, he wished he had the stalwart strength of an adult form, or the figure of his sister at his side. He swept his blonde braids from the side of his head, bringing them behind his ears. He made to call for Malenia again, but something inside of him, maybe the childlike part, screamed at him that it was a bad idea and the noise strangled itself in his throat before he even had the time to fully utter it.
Slowly, Miquella shifted in place, shivering at the touch of the cold tile and putrid blood between his fingers, and with a feeble strength, he stumbled to his feet. Where was he, where was Malenia? The thought came unbidden yet again, yet it was all that Miquella could think, all that he permitted himself to think.
It hadn't worked? What was this, was this what he received from trying to go against the Golden Order? Pain and blood? Miquella stumbled back to his knees, splayed fingers catching and splashing in the blood.
Why was there so much blood? Miquella whimpered despite himself. Where was Malenia?
The stars seemed to whirl overhead in patterns that they were not supposed to make, over and over again. Around and around. Miquella heaved, blood and bile spilling forth from between his pale lips to cover the ground again.
Where was he? Shakily he raised his head, some reason intruding on his fear. Carven stone… and the Haligtree's womb, twisted and rent, plucked from its mooring, structure and all. It was profane, it felt profane, in a way that Miquella the Unalloyed Gold had never felt before. It felt cursed.
No, Miquella thought, and horror danced with madness within his mind, someone had moved him from the Haligtree. He raised up his hands, staring at bloody fingers as the rotten blood ran between his digits. No. No. No!
He was still a child!
Why? Why would anybody do this? What did they have to gain?
He would have seen the Erdtree's order restored as it should've been, bolstered to keep the gods from the world. The primal crucible restored to the world. A world free of prejudice. A perfect world with Malenia forever. No!
Miquella felt the pinpricks of tears, and this time, he did not deny them, instead, he let them flow, twin rivulets making their way down his face, droplets in time with every breath. He balled his fingers into fists, only refraining from pushing them into his eye sockets due to the bloody mess he would make. He wasn't a child. He wasn't.
Amongst the blood and tears, Miquella wept, weeping for a world that would never be, weeping for a loss of perfection and sibling both. He could feel it, now that he was looking, he could feel the eternal bond that held him to his sibling, but there was no sibling but Rot. So much rot. Miquella's tears fell, mixing with the blood in slow sorrow.
"Malenia," Miquella whispered again, and before it had been full of hope that she would take him from this place, but now it was dotted with regret and pain. Saturated, drowning in pain, so much pain Miquella's little heart could barely stand to feel it.
Miquella struggled to his feet once more, the feeling of pins and needles spreading across his toes, like worms burrowing into his flesh. He moaned in pain, struggling forward unto the dais on which his grey and rotted cocoon sat. A creature sat within, grey and pallid, nails long and black, and upon its dead face, Miquella recognized his own face. Strands of blonde hair, matted and stringy hung around the sunken cheeks like a crown. Yet, the figure was female and very dead, a hole torn through its abdomen.
A failed apotheosis. Miquella bit back another sob that struggled and failed to burst free from his lips. Blood stained the thing's grey lips, and without even knowing for sure, Miquella knew it was cursed blood. A horrid miasma, that lay over this place, saturating it with formless malice. Miquella shuddered again, stepping away.
Miquella pulled the white sleeves of his garment close around him, even though there was no chill.
Slowly he stepped forward, into the gloom, only to stop in place with a startled squeak, muffled err it broke his lips at the sight of some thing before him. A creature shaped like a bat, lay in the blood, stomach gorged and distended. A pale tongue, bespittled with green saliva lay hanging from a squashed face, slowly lapping at the cursed blood.
Miquella shuddered, taking but a moment to note the superficial similarities to the monstrous bats of Limgrave and lower Lirunia before he shuddered again. What was this thing? It bore none of the redeeming Crucibilic echoes that even the Misbegotten had. Carefully, Miquella stretched out his focus, probing at the thing, but it only faintly returned the feeling of cursed blood. Cursed blood and more. Sex. And something else. Miquella felt sick all over again.
With a grimace pulling back his childish cheeks Miquella stepped away, bare feet drifting over the fetid blood, watching how it rippled. Then there was another, beady black eyes locked in ecstasy. It drank with abandon, pale tongue dabbing into the blood, again and again, drawing the crimson and black liquid back to hooked teeth. Its grey throat bobbed as it swallowed.
It was clothed, the feathers of some large creature arranged around its throat as a necklace, the teeth of some great animal joining the feathers. Gold jewelry hung from the creature, mixing with the blood in a way that seemed to make the gold lose its luster.
"The blood is good," it murmured to itself, tongue flicking to and fro, "such blood, such blood! Oh, what a Lord I shall make!"
Miquella froze, hardly daring to breathe in the still silence. This thing could speak? Should he speak to it? Indecision warred with fear for a long moment before Miquella steeled himself. Was he not of Marika and Radagon's get, was he not a demigod in his own right? Who was he to Malenia if he could not even muster up the will to speak?
"Hello?" Miquella fairly whispered, but his voice carried all the same. A moment later he cursed himself, despite his earlier will, he should have waited a moment, spared a second to think, what would Malenia do? Actually, that was probably a bad idea, what would Godwyn do?
Miquella was spared this indecision when the creature's eyes snapped to his, and it blinked once, then twice, before it shifted its forelimbs under it, climbing to four feet. Its flesh was dotted with stringy brown hair and its tongue darted over its teeth, cleaning them of all but a few droplets of crimson.
"A child?" It said, leaning forward, moving closer, claws dipping into the blood.
"Not entirely," Miquella answered quietly, stepping back as it advanced. Its eyes lowered to Miquella's blood covered lips and then lower still, its eyes drifted over him, lingering on his bloody hands, before rising back to his neck and lingering there for a long moment, "Can you tell me where I am?"
The creature stopped its advance and seemed to chortle, an evil sound deep in its throat, its black eyes fixed on him, "Why not, girl? You will be dead soon either way, do you not recognize the Nevernever, the world beyond?"
Miquella didn't bother to correct the misconception at all, just another mask to wear. He allowed his eyes to dart away, breaking eye contact. The Nevernever? The world beyond? Was that beyond the Lands Between? It had to be, didn't it? With a very deep sinking feeling Miquella realized he already knew the answer and it sent an icy chill up his spine in a way that the cold air had not, despite his flimsy bloody-white ceremonial robe.
"I find it within myself, in my magnanimity to spare one such as yourself," the creature said, rocking back on its haunches. It licked its lips, "You would make a fine addition to the Red Court."
Miquella could feel it as his throat bobbed as he swallowed. There was just something that was slightly off about the thing in front of him. Something that set the fine hair along his body standing on end.
"I am… spoken for," Miquella chose to say after a moment.
"Oh?" said the creature, a member of the Red Court, if it was to be believed. It slowly rose to its feet, flesh slipping back over its body, grey slipping between tan skin, until a human crouched before him, feathers and teeth garments and all. She was almost naked but rose to her feet, lips still bloody.
"And how did you come here, child? I can smell the blood on you, in you," she said, licking her lips again with a pale tongue but somehow not cleaning them of the blood.
Miquella stepped back again, silently wishing that he had not spoken at all.
"I do not know, for else, why would I ask one such as you?" Miquella answered. Stepping to the side, the creature turned her body to follow him, not caring for proper propriety.
"And if I could inquire of your name?" the creature asked, still in the voice of a woman. She smiled, which may have been kind if it wasn't for the hunger that danced there.
"M- my name is Saint Trina," Miquella responded, shifting as he more firmly adopted his guise, as easily as the creature in front of him had adopted the guise of the human after discarding the form of the bat. The lethargy of sleep lulled softly at his mind, but he pushed it away, as one would an errant fledgling.
"Saint? Saint Trina?" The woman said, and for the first time, she looked doubtful, where before there had been only hunger lurking beneath her merciless black eyes.
"Aye," Miquella responded, "What are you, if you mind me asking? You are not one of the Misbegotten, if am not mistaken."
The woman frowned, shifting on her feet, she leaned back down, long pale tongue darting out to lap again at the blood, pulling more its cursed essence into her body. It was worse, Miquella thought when she wore the guise of a woman. The tongue looked even more out of place and horrifying.
"You do not recognize my kind, Saint?" The woman crooned.
"Nay," Miquella responded, stopping in a place away from her.
"I hail from the Red Court," she responded after a moment, the picture of fever as she returned to lapping at the blood like an animal possessed.
The errant splash of a foot was all the warning Miquella received. The other creature, the one he has disregarded earlier, stark naked as it was, darted toward him, even as he turned. Miquella almost shrieked and ducked below the questing talons. It snarled, turning in the blood on a dime.
"Little Saint," it hissed, its eye pitch black, "I shall feast upon your sublime blood. I can hear it sing to me, drink, it says."
Miquella stood straight where he was, feeling like he had to respond, "My blood does not say that."
The creature shrieked, and Miquella flinched going to cover his ears when he saw the creature's talons sliding toward his face. Focus surged down his fingers, catching on his tiny finger seal, and the golden triangle of a Fundamentalist Incantation sprung to life, the sigil appearing in the air before him. Miquella thrust one hand into the air and a golden disc burst into being, slicing forward.
Black eyes, dark as pitch widened in surprise; and then it screamed, a shrill cry, as its body fell one way, and its legs the other. The disc rebounded, and its choked scream cut off as its head joined the body. The cuts on its flesh hissed, smoldering, almost burning.
The woman raised her head from the blood, watching him with newly-fascinated eyes.
"What holy light," she said, a trickle of blood running from her lips, "but I wonder-"
Miquella raised his hands again, a disc of gold spinning free toward her. Her eyes widened for just an instant and then she ducked.
"Silly child," she laughed, ducking the return of the disc as well, "The blessing of blood grants many things, such childish spells are but child's play."
She looked entirely too satisfied and Miqeulla frowned, the expression marring his beatific visage.
A blessing of blood?
The woman continued to slink forward, step by step, barely disturbing the blood under her. It rippled, but the ripples were wrong, and Miquella could say without a doubt that they did not betray reality.
He thrust his hands out to the side, mimicking the iconic pose of his mother, and the creature stilled, pausing for an instant. Then Miquella poured focus into the gold, and golden coils burst into being below his feet, golden order sigil in front of him, and Miquella enforced the Law of Regression.
All that was would seek to return to how it was. All things yearning to converge. The creature was caught within its light. Miquella snapped one arm up, and the other down and the golden light surged outward.
Something inside Miquella broke, but something broke inside the creature in front of him as well, perhaps of more dire importance.
The creature stiffened, mouth opening in a soundless scream. Then she began to convulse, falling to her knees, black bile spilling from her lips, from her eyes. From her ears and nose.
She fell to her hands and knees, coughing and spitting.
"What have you done, child," she hissed in agony, "How?"
Miquella did not answer, could only watch with horror, as pieces of the thing in front of him fell away, leaving tan skin, hair and pallid flesh pushed outward and falling away. Barely a moment had passed before the woman stilled, falling fully into the blood. She did not move.
Miquella carefully stepped away, he needed to get out of this place.
Needed to find wherever Malenia had gone. Needed to find where here was.
AN: I wanted to take a break from writing completely, but this idea wouldn't leave me until I put it down.