Camp of the Falcons, Crag-step Forest
Daniel accompanied the handmaiden to the command tent, parting it to reveal Casca in her nightclothes, standing and waiting for them. "What's going on?" she asked.
"I'll let her explain when the others arrive," Daniel replied. "She's not here to hurt anyone."
Casca looked rather unconvinced, even as the rest of the command staff filed into the tent. "Alright," she said as everyone settled in, "talk."
"I am Handmaiden Lorelle of Princess Charlotte, ma'am," the handmaiden said. "She has asked me to come and offer her assistance in freeing Sir Griffith."
Casca's expression twitched for a moment before it smoothed over again, but Daniel could still see the conflict in her eyes. "What does Princess Charlotte have to offer?"
"Information," Lorelle replied. "It can be assumed you're unaware of Sir Griffith's location?"
"He's in a dungeon inside the castle grounds, we know that much for sure," Corkus, clearly still somewhat bleary-eyed, said with no small amount of annoyance. "We can work from there."
"Not just any dungeon, sir," Lorelle replied. "The Tower of Rebirth. Its lowest level."
"The Tower of Rebirth…" Judeau said quietly.
"What's that?" Rickert, who had tagged along, asked.
"The oldest tower in Wyndham, said even to be older than Midland itself," Judeau replied. "In ancient times of war, prisoners were kept there. During the Sunlit Inquisition, those decreed heretics by the Way of White joined them."
"So they still keep prisoners there," Daniel mused.
"To ensure they might never escape," Lorelle said, clutching her hands to her chest as if to ward off the very thought of the place. "None have ever managed to infiltrate it and emerge alive in all of its history."
It was silent for long moments as the gathered Falcons considered the task before them. "Is there a way we can infiltrate the castle?" Daniel prompted. "As long as we can mask our path to and from, we might have a chance at escape."
"There are a few ways," Lorelle admitted after a moment's hesitation. "Please, allow me to write them down, if you will."
Casca gestured to a quill, ink, and stack of parchment on the table, Lorelle taking a piece of parchment before leaning over and beginning to write quickly.
"What's Griffith's condition?" Gaston asked. "Do you know?"
Lorelle's writing paused for a moment, a long silence making the tension in the tent begin to squeeze in on its occupants. "King Adamar ordered that he be tortured severely for a year, and to be kept alive during and after such torture. From what little I've dared to hear, the torturer tasked with such has been… successful."
The claw of tension grasping all seemed to squeeze the breath out of all others in the tent. "How is that possible?" Corkus asked incredulously. "Even someone as healthy and strong as Griffith couldn't last half that long."
"I shudder at the creativity of this jailer," Daniel said darkly. "But… there are ways. Ways I wish I'd never known."
Lorelle finished writing what was a remarkably comprehensive list and straightened up. "I have given you all I know," she said. "I fear I've already tarried too long. Thank you for receiving me."
"And thank you for being willing to assist us," Casca said. "Send our thanks to the Princess as well."
Lorelle nodded. "I shall. And to Lord Adonis, as well. His most loyal scouts, to both himself and Sir Griffith, have been following at a distance. They have been sworn to secrecy. They are who allowed me to find you and relay this message."
That had many of the commanders casting uneasy glances at each other, Daniel's brows simply arching. "He risks much for Sir Griffith's sake," he said quietly.
Lorelle looked over at Daniel. "For how he and his men saved him, he must feel he owes a debt of gratitude. I do not know why he does these things. You will likely have to ask him yourself."
"I suppose we will," Casca said. "Go, quickly. You know a way to avoid the inevitable patrols looking out for us?"
Lorelle smiled slightly. "My father was the royal cartographer. There are family secrets no official map of these lands has for me to take advantage of. I'll manage."
Casca nodded, and Lorelle curtsied before she turned and made her way out of the tent. It left the Falcons to silently consider what had just transpired.
"Well," Judeau finally said, "we have someone on the inside. That's going to speed things up considerably."
"We still need to put such things into action, however," Casca replied. "So until we can be sure that the camp won't get hit by a mercenary attack while the team is gone, we have to remain patient."
"How much longer can we do that, huh?" Corkus said. "We know where Griffith is, why not just go and get him, and damn the mercenaries?"
"Because more likely than not, a significant part of our command staff is going to be going on this rescue mission," Casca replied. "We can't afford to slip up on a mission like this, even once. So, we take only our most experienced. And that means most of the command staff."
Corkus almost leered at Casca. "Including you?" he asked somewhat incredulously.
"Including me," Casca said firmly.
She cast her gaze around the tent. "Which means that until that time, all of you need to get your rest. We all need to be at our best for when we go to save Griffith."
"Who stays behind to ensure chain of command?" Gaston asked.
Casca sighed quietly. "From within this tent?"
She paused for a moment. "Corkus, you'll be among the most experienced of those who I won't take. I'll need you to stay here with Gaston and Anna. If we don't return… you'll be the new chain of command."
Corkus' eyes went wide at the idea, his shock shared by more than a few within the tent. "You're sure about this?" he said quietly, a quiver fighting its way into his voice.
"I have to be," Casca replied. "Now go, get back to sleep."
Slowly, almost hesitantly, the group began to file out of the tent. Only Daniel remained after a few moments, regarding Casca levelly. "You should follow your own orders," he said meaningfully. "You've been running yourself ragged, and this sort of thing was the only thing I would wake you up for."
"And here I thought I was your commanding officer," Casca said rather wryly. "Who gave you the right to issue orders to me?"
"I'd say by dint of being the oldest person in the camp, with the most life experience," Daniel replied with a slight smile, "that makes me the camp's old codger of a dad. A role I take with no small amount of seriousness."
Casca finally smiled, slight though it was. "Alright, alright. I suppose I can't argue with that. Good night, Daniel."
"Good night, Casca," Daniel replied as he made his way to the tent door. He paused for a moment at it as he looked back. "I'll see you in the morning to coordinate where people go from here."
With that, he returned to the night, grateful that this little adventure took up the last portion of his time on night watch.
. . .
1 Month Later
Guts sat at one of the tents reserved for tournament combatants, taking a piece of wood from one of the campfires that he and Willem had started, and focusing on it intently as he held a knife in his other hand. He had, thus far, the rudimentary shape of a person, a ghost of a sword and shield in its hand and by one of its legs.
He'd been working on it since he'd started his journey with Willem. Why was still a question he hadn't been able to answer quite yet, but it seemed… soothing.
'I guess I can see why Daniel does it,' he mused as he continued to shave the black walnut wood with intention. 'There's something… calming about this.'
It wasn't the same sort of calm he found in swinging his sword, but he had something to focus on. Something to accomplish before going out and facing the world.
He paused for a moment, studying the figure in his hands. It seemed… almost familiar. Still rough, but…
The tent flap rustled open, and Guts looked up to see Willem. "Am I up?" he asked, setting woodwork in his bag as he sheathed his knife.
"You're next," Willem said. "Figured you'd want to get a lay of the land. Your opponent might be… an interesting one."
Guts arched a brow as he rose, taking his sword, a simple thing with a blade that went almost to the hilt, the 'crossguard' simply wrappings of thicker metal that extended half a foot from where the hilt met its blade, and exiting from the tent as the pair made their way to the castle grounds proper.
Castle Garenrel looked much like any other castle Guts might have laid siege to during the war. Hell, he might have sieged this one at some point or another. They all kind of blurred together by this point. What mattered most, at the moment, was what went on within.
As they passed through the gate, they saw well-built stands, covered in colorful cloth and filled with a cheering crowd, the main attraction they were cheering on the duel taking place in a ring of sand picketed by a simple wooden fence.
Guts watched intently as he and Willem came to a stop at the fenceline, sizing up the two duelists as they circled each other.
One, the larger of the two by no small amount, wore a patchwork of armor that told Guts what side he favored in a fight, his helmet a strange, almost archaic design that only covered the top half of his face. This, as the announcer had proclaimed loudly, was the mercenary captain Valancia, the Lord of Slaughter. His claim to fame was a kill count of 130 men killed throughout his time in the Hundred-Year War. Guts had heard of him before, but never faced him in battle. He wielded a broad arming sword, keeping his guard up against the man that he faced off.
The man opposite him, as Willem said, was quite an oddity in comparison. He was slim, almost slight, and seemingly his only armor was a sleeveless leather gambeson, a single metal plate over his chest. his head was wrapped by an ivory cloth that concealed his hair and much of his face, and he wielded a pair of strange, three-bladed daggers, their hilts arrayed in such a fashion that they almost seemed like overwrought knuckle-dusters.
This, the announcer proclaimed, was the foreign warrior known only as Silat, the dark horse of the tournament thus far. Looking closer, Guts saw the dark eyes and deeply tanned skin of Silat. 'I wonder if he's from the same place as Casca,' he wondered as, at last, the match began in earnest.
Valancia charged forward, his sword a blur as he did his best to lay into the smaller man. Silat, though, simply darted back, each strike missing him even if only by inches. 'With armor like that,' Guts mused, 'I'd get pretty damn good at dodging too.'
Valancia, obviously, tired of this quickly, trying to stab Silat with a shout. As Guts blinked, however, Silat's strange blades intercepted the sword, turning to lock with the blade as Valancia tried to pull it back.
Then, a gasp went up in the stands as Silat's foot darted up into a remarkably high kick that struck Valancia in the chin, sending him stumbling back, the lock on his sword holding firm.
As Valancia tried to pull his sword back from Silat, Silat jumped and spun in the air, twisting the sword out of the massive man's hands, and tossed it aside as he landed. As Valancia shook his head, Silat advanced, pausing with his blades under the man's throat.
It was still for long moments, then Valancia, growled though they were, said the words everyone was waiting for. "Alright, I yield."
The crowd clapped and cheered, and the presenter stood once again. "Again, Silat proves the power of his remarkable martial arts! What a stunning display. Can our next and final challenger stand against such mystifying tactics? Perhaps the Greatswordsman will win the day where others have failed!"
Guts continued to roll his eyes at the moniker. It seemed so… unnecessary, really. He was just a man good at swinging big swords. There wasn't any need for a ridiculous title like that.
But still, it was his turn to face this fire-stepping warrior, regardless of what he thought of the title. Stepping onto the sand, he unsheathed his sword, and leveled it at Silat.
"The martial arts of this land seem so simple and narrow-minded," Silat said, his voice laced with an accent that Guts couldn't place. "It seems you will be no different, like a child swinging a particularly large stick. Either way…"
Silat settled into a low stance, seeming ready to pounce with his weapons poised like claws. "Prepare yourself!"
Guts, however, simply put the blade on his shoulder. "Whenever you're ready," he said with a slight smile.
Silat's eyes widened as he scoffed. "I can see through you easily enough," he said. "You mean to use the length of your weapon to keep me out of reach, and my guard lowered with your seeming lack of stance."
Guts shrugged. "That would track with my narrow-mindedness or whatever. Stop sweating the details and just go with it. This is just a tournament after all."
Silat was silent for a moment before he nodded. "Very well," he said quietly. "A tournament with no blood is a boring affair, after all…"
Guts readied himself, but even his reflexes only barely prepared him for the blaze of movement that Silat proved to be in his charge. He could almost feel the parting of the air as the strange sword passed his face by mere inches, the lowest of the blades scratching his shoulder plate.
He continued to dodge, the crowd cheering and throwing so much useless encouragement at the both of them as he focused on the man right in front of him.
He heard the clicking pop of something below his line of sight as he watched Silat aim another high kick. He caught the glint of metal, a boot blade, coming up on his right. In a split-second of decision, instead of moving his head, he shifted his sword, the hilt and his hand catching the ankle and stopping the blade which was surely just short.
That didn't seem to stop Silat, however, another boot blade popping out on the other foot as, incredibly, he lifted his other foot off the ground, using Guts' hilt as an anchor for his other foot. Guts' eyes went wide, and his gauntleted arm moved to intercept this one, now catching Silat's foot with time to spare. He was used to this man's speed now.
Caught as the man was, however, Silat seemed to have a well of tenacity within him, bending himself backward to try and lunge at him with his blades, shouting a cry in a foreign language. "Jin Mhakarha!"
Guts decided, at that moment, to take a step back and pivot, lowering his sword arm as he did. The action seemed to have its intended effect, throwing Silat off balance as he went flying off of Guts' body. He hit the ground and rolled, Guts bringing his sword to bear and leveling the tip at Silat's face.
"You'd make a killing as a street performer," he said as Silat froze from getting to his feet. "And I didn't even have to use my simple, narrow-minded sword arts."
He could almost make out Silat's jaw clenching before he released one of his blades to raise a staying hand. "Very well. I yield."
The words elicited a wild cheer as Guts let Silat get to his feet and walk away, looking around at the people who clamored after him. Who must have been the tournament's organizer made his way down from his box in the stands and hurried his way over to Guts.
"What a splendid show!" the nobleman said with no small amount of glee. "You'll have your prize money, that much is for certain, you and the other runners-up, but I also want you to be among the first of this tournament to know of the opportunity before you and a select few."
Guts already had an idea of what the man had in mind, but there was no reason to show his hand here. "And what would that be?"
"Another reason for this tournament and many others is to collect capable soldiers who are willing to be paid handsomely for their time," the nobleman said. "The king has issued a decree to begin a bandit hunt. One that happens to fall within my territories."
"And what if I'm not interested?" Guts said offhandedly as he contained his emotions as best he could. "I'm just looking for strong opponents. Bandits don't exactly strike me as 'strong'."
"Ah, the words of, perhaps, a knight in the midst of peregrination?" the nobleman said.
"Something like that," Guts said, not fully grasping the meaning of the stuffy, likely overcomplicated word.
"Don't you worry then!" the nobleman replied. "If it's a test of strength you're looking for, then the woman boss of this army of bandits has been reputed to be able to best even ten hearty men!"
"A woman boss?" Guts said as Willem joined him by his side.
"Yes, indeed," the nobleman said. "This bandit group used to be a mercenary outfit during the Hundred-Year War. Surely tales of them have reached your ears even as long as you might have been gone? Those of the Band of the Falcon and their lady commander Casca?"
Guts' brow rose slightly. "Alright," he said after a moment, "say I am interested. When do we go and get these guys?"
"Well," the nobleman said with some hesitation, "our first step is to gather a sufficient force and find them. They have proven remarkably wily thus far."
"Find them?" Willem said, seemingly incredulously. "You mean to say that a mercenary band of a size to defeat the soldiers of the Falcon would have to waste time finding them first?"
The nobleman put up his hands. "It would require some time, but I am certain we can find them and crush them in due time. You would be paid handsomely for your time, from both my coffers and a fund set aside by the king."
Guts looked at Willem rather skeptically, then shrugged. "Well, as long as it doesn't take forever."
. . .
1 Month Later
Daniel held his wooden pendant gently, probing Guts' feelings as he sat smack in the middle of another night watch. More fires had been allowed to spring up, drawing back the darkness before them, and more tents and supplies had been gained. Costly though this might have been.
Guts was on the move now, largely bored but also rather on edge. He was likely to be looking for them now, moving either on his own or with others. He would be here soon, Daniel reckoned. It had nearly been a year since that day. Now, things would move in earnest soon enough. Very soon.
"What do you feel?"
Daniel blinked as he looked over at Anaa'ri, who had joined him during this night watch. "Guts is moving now, Rhia," he said quietly. "We will likely be moving to free Griffith soon."
"That we shall," Rhia replied.
Daniel was silent for a moment. "How likely do you think it is that we can somehow talk him out of what comes next, really?" he asked. "In his state…"
"It seems hard to believe," Rhia replied. "We have been in… talks within the vessel. These debates have become heated, at times."
"That bad, huh?"
Rhia was silent. "We are divided as to whether or not we should try and preserve Griffith or to kill him in the time before the Eclipse. Both methods have their merits."
"Perhaps they do," Daniel said. "But if we kill Griffith now, the hand behind the Eclipse may well choose another to take his place. Should we heal him and take them away…"
"How long would that forestall things?" another voice chimed in. Nimira was silent for a moment before continuing. "It would leave open the potential of Griffith succumbing to the Crimson Beherit at another time and place, and all that would be gained are a few years, at most."
"A lot can happen in a few years, Nimira," Daniel said meaningfully. "It gives us time to prepare. To get some distance while we wait things out as they happen in Midland."
"And what will those few years look like on a strategic scale?" Ulikam said, Anna's jaw clenching slightly. "There is every chance that, should the Band of the Falcon survive the coming Eclipse, it will continue to be hounded until it is ground to dust, whether by Midland or another force."
"The potential always exists for such," Daniel admitted. "It's the risk that comes with our line of work, after all."
He paused for a moment. "And what of you, Firathi? Do you take Rhia's side as well?"
Anna's expression became neutral, seemingly teetering on the edge of slack. "The fact of the matter is simple," the Memory Seer replied. "The Godhand is not an infallible force. Our very presence alone already deviates from their desired course. Further action would likely upset their plans completely."
Daniel nodded as he looked back into the night. "No. They aren't infallible, are they?"
Before he could continue, he caught something in between the coverage of the trees. Deep, glowing red eyes within a humanoid shadow. They were being watched as well, were they?
Daniel stood from the stump of a tree that had been felled for firewood and to clear space, Anna looking up at him. "What is it?" Rhia asked.
"Speaking of eldritch beings…" Daniel replied as he stepped forward. "I think I'm going to try having a conversation with this one."
With that, he advanced into the woods, the light of camp dimming as Daniel's eyes adjusted with an almost unnatural speed. It allowed him to see the being that awaited him now, standing still on horseback. Its gaze held on him with an unnatural steadiness, the face a graven, skeletal mask.
Daniel came to a stop about a dozen yards away from the Skeleton Knight, regarding him with a relaxed expression. "I see you take time away from studying Guts to survey the Band of the Falcon," he said. "Fascinating."
"Who are you, to approach so boldly?" the Knight asked.
"I'm Daniel Theisman, the Midnight Dragon," Daniel replied. "Guts' adoptive father."
It was silent for the space of a heartbeat. "Such things are within the scope of Causality," the Knight said. "What is somewhat beyond its scope are the events that have transpired recently."
"Indeed?" Daniel said. "The flight of the Falcons on the word of a noble boy who should be dead, avoiding a culling ambush? Their much more hale and hearty state of affairs? These are according to my design. As is the hope to remove Griffith as a pawn of the Godhand, one way or another."
This time, the silence stretched for far longer, Daniel not missing the hand the Skeleton Knight rested on the hilt of his sword. "What are you, to know of such things? An Apostle somehow dissenting from its masters?"
"I am not an Apostle," Daniel replied. "I am merely the captain of my soul. As well as afforded the knowledge of what is supposed to come next. What is supposed to transpire during the Eclipse. And I intend to ensure that things continue to change."
The hand on the hilt tightened, the sword at the Skeleton Knight's side beginning to slip free from its sheath. "You are from another world as well. You will die like the rest, however frenzied they may be," he said, his voice a low, dangerous rumble.
"Frenzy…" Daniel said, his brow furrowing. "You've encountered the Flame of Frenzy? A yellow-red fire that burns away all that divides and distinguishes, that chaos may take the world?"
The sword paused a few inches out of the scabbard, and the Knight maintained that seemingly soulless gaze of his. "You are familiar with such a power," he said after long moments.
"Yes," Daniel replied, "and not taken by it as others might be. It tells me that the coming conjunction of worlds is closer at hand than I first thought."
"You speak of a Conjunction. How would this come to pass?" the Knight asked, Daniel quite grateful he also saw the sword return fully to its sheath.
"The explanation would take more time than just a single night," Daniel said. "Suffice to say, two worlds shall become one, bleeding into one another until they are fully intermingled. Seek me after the Eclipse. I know you will find Guts in the mountain home of the elves. There will I strive to be also."
With that, Daniel turned and walked back, leaving the Skeleton Knight to watch him silently as he returned to Anna's side.
"How did it go?" Rhia asked.
"Decently enough," Daniel replied. "We have both learned things from each other. Such as what might be the cause of these worlds coming together."
"How do you mean?"
"Remember what you saw when you came to this Echo when crossing the Worldsea? The color of the great mass you passed?"
"Red and yellow…" Rhia said slowly. "Like a burning flame…"
"A Flame of Frenzy," Daniel said grimly. "One that the Skeleton Knight has been dealing with in the background all this time. I can't help but fear somewhat about what might come next if such a world as that consumed by the Flame of Frenzy will unite with this one."
The pair went silent, and Daniel looked out to see the Skeleton Knight turning away and leaving them. It would not be the last time that they met. Daniel was sure of that much, at least.
. . .
2 Weeks Later
Casca poured over a map, rubbing her eyes. Daniel wasn't on night duty tonight. That meant that he wouldn't pop in, as he sometimes did, to chastise her about her lack of sleep and concern over the minor details of the camp.
Not that they felt minor at this point. For the Band's part, now fully a third of them had been wounded in one way or another, a fourth of that number grievously. 30 more men had left over the last month, bringing their current numbers down to a little over 3,500. There were medical supplies and rations to… retrieve, so to speak, and coordinate, sleeping arrangements and night watch to confirm…
Something within her whispered that, had events gone as the White Tigers might have wished, the situation would be far, far worse for her and Daniel to manage.
"Daniel's right, you know."
Casca tensed slightly before sighing quietly, remaining silent as Judeau continued. "You keep pulling all-nighters like this, we're going to have to worry about you more than you worry about us."
"Daniel's message, I would imagine?" she said as she turned to see the simple stew that Judeau carried and set down on the table she studied at. Even that was starting to become a luxury, simpler foodstuffs that could be taken or foraged often taking its place to preserve it.
"Common sense," Judeau corrected. "It doesn't take Daniel letting us know to see that you're running yourself ragged since you took leadership last year. If you collapse now, it sends a message to the rest of the group. Just… keep that in mind. Please."
Casca took a deep breath and nodded, taking the stew and beginning to eat. "Is that all?"
Judeau shook his head. "Word just came in from our contingent in Wyndham."
Casca perked up as Judeau continued, his expression grim. "They've confirmed what the handmaiden Lorelle said. Griffith is being kept in the Tower of Rebirth. Those they've been able to catch and talk to who've been in there say that, for the last year, they've heard… something in between screaming and moaning from his cell. But apparently… that's stopped this past month, too."
Casca's expression mirrored Judeau's. "Is he even still alive?" she wondered aloud, silently cursing the thought. "If he is… we'll have to hurry."
"We will," Judeau said. "You've finalized the plans to spring Griffith by now? With this long, they'll probably be foolproof!"
He stepped forward and put a hand on Casca's shoulder. "But you'll need to be at the top of your game to make sure things go well when we go."
Casca took a deep breath and nodded. "Thank you for the stew, Judeau," she said quietly.
"Don't sweat it, Casca," Judeau replied with a slight smile.
Then, the contemplative silence was broken by a horn, blaring three times before a voice shouted.
"Night raid! Night rai-"
Casca nearly leaped to her feet, grabbing her sword as Judeau dashed out of the tent, the clamor of battle rising like a sudden cloudburst to cover the camp in sound and fury.
Unsheathing her sword and tossing the scabbard aside, Casca dashed out of the tent, taking stock of the situation as quickly as her still-tired mind allowed.
As she finished processing things, she began to give her orders to the still scattered, though quickly forming, Falcon defense. "The attack is from the north-west! Raiders, Hammerheads, form ranks and make a wall! Vanguards, Arrowheads, get the wounded onto carts and horses and give them a chance to escape!"
Before she could continue, a strange voice cut her off. "Near-immediate adaptation and command. Impressive, gahanak, and in keeping with the rumors surrounding the woman commander of the Falcons."
Casca turned to see a man in strange armor and a head-wrapping that covered most of his face, except for eyes and the skin around him that looked remarkably like hers. He wielded strange blades that were now leveled at her. "But," the man continued, "we both know when the head is cut off, the battle is decided. Prepare yourself!"
With that, the man charged at her with a remarkable speed, Casca's blade only deflecting the strange weapons by the barest of margins. The assault continued for long, agonizing seconds as she searched for a way to pry apart his defenses, but trying was like trying to pull apart the wind one breeze at a time. This foe flowed and shifted and crashed against her like a wave of water, keeping her on the retreat.
A boot blade flashed up from her left, causing Casca to lean back from the daring strike. As it passed her head, however, the man pivoted, the high kick flowing into a backward kick that landed squarely on her chest, sending her to the ground and knocking the breath from her lungs.
The man, with a shout of triumph, loomed over her, his blades poised to strike down and end this all-too-brief duel here and now.
A black-coated blur had other plans, however, slamming into the warrior and throwing him aside with a shout of effort.
Casca looked up at Daniel, partially armored and wielding his swordspear, its blade already stained with blood. "Get out of here!" he shouted.
It was all he had time to say before the warrior was back on his feet, aimed at Casca. Daniel interposed himself quickly, however, the clash of their blades giving her the chance to get to her feet to try and support Daniel.
Their blades were almost blurs, Daniel's speed seeming to match with the warrior's blow for blow, keeping him at a distance. Casca couldn't see a way into the duel that would help Daniel at all. If he could hold his own…
She began to turn, then saw a gleam of metal flash in a nearby firelight. Almost as quickly as she saw it, Daniel reacted, batting away what looked like a ring of metal with a pealing ring, the potential weapon tumbling away.
It distracted Daniel for the briefest second. The warrior, however, took full advantage of it, dashing forward and sweeping Daniel's legs from under him. As he hit the ground, his weapon skewing away, the warrior leaped down on him, the blades crossing over Daniel's neck.
Casca began to advance on the warrior, but he saw her advance. "Stop! Or he will die."
Casca paused, and the warrior continued. "You have two choices before you. Either you will call on your troops to surrender, or I shall behead the Midnight Dragon before me. I shall even be generous to you, gahanak, and give you the count of three."
Casca looked down at Daniel as the warrior began to count, and found the man… smiling. What? Why?
"One," the warrior said. "Two. Three…"
"Four."
Casca blinked as a dark boot shoved aside the warrior, looking up to see…
"Damn, old man. It really took that little to get you on the ground? A street performer?"
Daniel chuckled, taking Guts' helping hand to get to his feet. "What can I say? Rather me than someone else."
Guts looked over at Casca, who continued to stare almost in awe at him, and smiled slightly. "Good to see you."
Finally, others began to notice the man who loomed large within their ranks. Soon, Guts' name became a rallying cry, the Falcons rallying and pressing against their attackers all the harder.
The warrior slowly got to his feet. "So," he said, "you are the Hundred-Man Killer, captain of the Raiders of the Band of the Falcon. Such would explain your strength."
Guts nodded as he stepped towards the warrior, another man coming up behind Guts as the pair drew themselves apart from the rest of the scuffle. As Casca prepared to intercept him, Daniel, of all people, put a staying hand across her. "Wait," he said, his eyes wide. "Willem?"
"Good to see you well, Daniel!" the man replied, taking off his helmet to give them a better look. "Shall we go help Guts ensure Silat is dealt with?"
Daniel looked over at the pair, shaking his head. "He can take care of it. We have other pressing matters to attend to."
He looked back to Casca. "What are our orders?"
. . .
Guts considered Silat as the warrior backed away. "Perhaps this, too is a form of divine grace," the man said, reaching into his armor and pulling out two metal rings that he began to spin on each index finger. "Now, I can reclaim my grace lost at the tournament."
"You really are a street performer," Guts said as he readied his sword. "You really don't seem to cut it as a swordsman."
"I wouldn't scoff too quickly," Silat replied. "After all…"
His eyes darted around as he tensed himself. "When these chakram fly off my hands, they shall become your angel's halos!"
With that he tossed them to the sides, the rings flying high into the air.
"And what are you up to now?" Guts asked, catching the rings as they reached their apex… and began to angle towards him.
"Your doom."
Guts waited patiently for the rings to continue closer and closer, his eyes darting between each. Almost… almost…
In an instant, his arms became almost a blur and the two discs clanged… and began to spin inside his free hand's finger and the hilt of his sword.
Silat's eyes went wide. "Impossible! To keep a steady track of such weapons…"
"It's a lot like swatting flies," Guts replied as he let the chakram on his hilt drop to the dirt. "I'm just letting you get your tricks out of you now."
He tried to mimic Silat's method of throwing, aiming straight at the man, but Silat stepped aside to easily dodge the rather sloppy throw.
The man hummed, and then his hands gripped a second set of hilts hanging from his waist. "Very well. Let us add a few more blades then."
He pulled the hilts out, and the firelight of the camp glittered on the remarkably flexible blades the flowed like streams from their source.
"Behold!" Silat proclaimed. "The Hands of Hashnu Gupanya! Each blade is a bolt of lightning from her thundercloud fortress! And they shall drink deeply from you!"
'He even talks like an entertainer…' Guts thought as he watched the blades dance and swirl around Silat. Then, with a flick of his wrist, five blades slithered and darted out towards him, seeming almost to try at enveloping him.
Guts jumped back, the tips of the blades barely missing as they scratched against his armor. Silat seemed… amused by this, more than anything.
"Well done!" he said. "The urumi is no small feat to evade. But that was only the first. Shall you manage to slip through ten blade blades at once?"
With that, the dance began, Guts focusing on step and counterstep, dodge, duck, and weave as he slowly made his way to Silat. Even still, the tips or edges of the blades caught him where they could and cut shallowly.
'It's like trying to wrangle a wild weasel!' Guts thought as he watched Silat slowly back away from his advance. As he did, he watched an enemy soldier, either brave enough or stupid enough not to wear a helmet, stray back just that little bit too far, looking back to see the whirlwind coming towards him.
In an instant, his head was a mess of slices, blood spilling out as he fell back gurgling blood. The poor bastard may have been dead, but if Guts wasn't careful, he'd tire out and fall not too far behind the man.
So, he backed off, Silat slowing, then stopping his mad dance as they once again faced off against each other. "You are remarkable," Silat said, "to avoid the full touch of the urumi for this long. But like this poor soldier, you will end up with your skin flayed in due time."
Guts was silent, considering his options and, rather unsurprisingly, settling on the most risky one. 'One of these days…'
He settled into a low stance, his sword held behind him at the ready.
The sight made Silat tilt his head slightly. "You think to use your blade against mine? You should know such is impossible! Have you truly thrown this fight away?"
'Like hell,' Guts thought. 'Come and get me.'
Across from him, unable to perceive, Silat's mind was shot through with incredulity at Guts' sheer focus. 'Those aren't the eyes of one who counts himself dead.'
"Very well," Silat said. "I accept your challenge! Let her thunder ripple through your flesh!"
The blades came up, danced in a cloud over Silat's head, flew towards Guts…
And Guts, waiting until the last moment, put his plan into action, his sword coming up and catching the blades, gathering them into a single stream which he caught under his left arm as he rotated, locking the blades in place as he pulled Silat towards him, aiming an almost wild chop with the sword.
Silat, his eyes wide at the frankly insane strategy that had worked in Guts' favor, dropped the hilts of his urumi before he could get dragged too much farther, his hands darting to his punching blades and drawing them before he realized blocking the great blade coming towards him would leave him worse than simply open.
So he jumped back, the tip of the blade just barely striking his head-wrapping and tearing through it.
Then, the clash was over, Guts letting the blades drop from his arm. "Not bad, switching weapons that quickly," he said to Silat, watching as the cloth on his head began to unravel.
After a moment, it fell away, revealing a young man with black hair, a thin, sharp face mired by the rivulet of blood that ran down from the slight cut on his forehead.
"Filthy cur…" Silat spat, taking a step forward.
"Sir! Master Silat!"
The cry drew both Silat and Guts' attention to the mercenaries standing behind Silat. And the scattered lines of mercenaries that were fleeing behind them. "We can't hold out! We've got to go!"
Silat growled as he looked back at Guts. "So," he said, "you are Guts. I will make sure to remember your name. And your power."
With that, Silat turned and retreated with the rest of the mercenaries that had attacked the Band of the Falcon.
The battle was over, and Guts took a deep breath as he turned back to look at the camp. For a moment, next to Daniel and Willem, he saw Casca, standing within the camp and regarding him with a level expression that hid something behind her eyes. What was that? Gratitude?
Guts had little time to ponder though, as what must have been a good third of the Band rushed over to him, cheers and shouts of joy, shouts of his name, making the air thrum with relief. And, for once… he didn't mind being surrounded like this.
First to catch him in an embrace was little Rickert, well past the verge of tears of happiness. "Guts… sir…"
"Hey, Rickert. Good to see you're holding up," Guts replied, ruffling the boy's hair as he looked around. After a moment, he found Pippin and Judeau, a little ways away. Both smiled, and Judeau flashed a thumbs up, Guts returning the gesture with a slight smile.
The smile disappeared as he saw the least likely of people approaching him, coming through the crowd slowly, a remarkably somber expression on his face.
Corkus came to a stop in front of him, regarding him silently for a moment, the crowd around them quieting slightly as they waited for what might come next.
"So," Corkus finally said, his voice calm and rather subdued, "find what you were looking for out there?"
Guts blinked as surprise rippled through him. 'What happened?'
After a moment, he shrugged. "Not all of it, I think. But enough to tell me I needed to come back here."
Corkus hummed quietly. "Fair enough, I suppose."
Corkus looked away as Guts continued to wonder just what the hell might have happened, and Guts looked with him to see one last group charging toward him with wide smiles and teary eyes.
"Well, well," he said as his smile returned, briefly noting Corkus stepping back, "if it isn't the Raiders…"
Gaston, leading the charge, threw his arm around Guts' shoulder as the other Raiders surrounded him, asking after him in a tide of words that Guts couldn't quite make out.
What he and everyone else heard clearly, though, was a clear, commanding voice cutting through the nose almost effortlessly. "That's enough for now!"
All eyes returned to Casca as she continued. "We have no guarantee they're the only force after us, or that they won't return! Pack up and prepare to move out!"
As Casca continued to issue orders, the men following her commands instantly, Guts noticed she did not meet his gaze, avoiding looking at him now.
"Casca…" Rickert said, likely wondering the same thing.
Guts put a hand on the boy's shoulder. "She's right," he said. "We'll have time to figure things out once we're out of danger."
. . .
The camp relocated with the sort of speed and efficiency that Guts expected from the Band of the Falcon. He saw fewer than he'd expected, however, and all too many with wounds that would have had them on rest in the rear lines. But they didn't have that luxury now.
Now, he sat in view of a grand, majestic waterfall, his compatriots filling him in on the details of what had transpired over the last year.
Daniel watched on, sitting on a fallen log, noting Corkus within the circle and talking to Guts. 'Good. I'd hoped what I showed him stuck,' he mused.
"This is a hell of a company," Willem, sitting next to him, remarked, Daniel glancing over to see him looking around their new camp. "No wonder it gained such a mighty reputation. Even in exile, they hold themselves higher than many soldiers. Much in thanks to you, I'd think."
Daniel chuckled, smiling slightly as he nodded. "Please, spare yourself the glad-handing. But to some extent, they certainly are. And all of them are as close as siblings. An unbreakable bond combined with an iron will… that was what carried us to greatness then."
Daniel regarded Willem intently. "But enough about us. What have you been up to?"
Willem sighed and smiled. "I got married to my fair lady, Josephine. We have a little holding we bought with the money I made as a mercenary. We have a daughter, a real rascal of a girl. Takes after her father too much, if you ask me."
Daniel chuckled. "What's her name?"
"Adelle," Willem said with a distant smile. "And she just became an older sister to a fine, calm baby boy. Our strapping young man Alaric."
Willem sighed quietly. "I wish you could meet them. Show them how true the tales I tell of you are."
"Maybe someday," Daniel replied, his tone slightly distant.
After a moment, Daniel's brow furled slightly. "And how did you come to hear about our plight? You should be at home, raising a lovely family."
"A little over a year ago, I found myself earning a little extra on the side as part of the yearly tournaments that went on near my town, a good supplement for a town guard," Willem explained. "It was only a month or two before I found out about King Adamar's proclamation denouncing the Band of the Falcon, listing you among the arch-traitors to be captured or killed."
Willem nodded slightly. "I knew right from the start how much of a crock of shit it was. Calumny at its worst," he said assuredly.
"And how is that?" Daniel asked.
"No people you call comrades would ever truly stoop so low if you had any say about it as I think you have," Willem said. "That alone told me that there was more at play than any Midlandian authorities would truly say."
"And how did you manage to run into Guts?" Daniel asked. "What way did you figure he'd be out and going to such events?"
"I didn't, frankly," Willem said. "Before I found Guts out, I was going to come and stand with you on my own, accompanying the force that was being assembled. His appearance at one of our outermost qualifiers… well, that was a stroke of the damnedest luck."
"So it would seem," Daniel said. "And how was he as a traveling companion, if I may be so brazen?"
"Not much in the way of a conversationalist," Willem said with a chuckle. "Some days it was a blessing, some a curse. He was certainly self-sufficient and remarkably skilled with that greatsword of his. You trained him well."
Willem's smile became a grin. "He's even taken up woodworking, following in your footsteps. He found a piece of dark wood early in our journey, started working on it with a carving knife a blacksmith had spare. He's been working some figure out of it whenever he has the spare time and inclination."
He paused for a moment, his gaze falling on Casca. "Come to think of it… the figure manages to look remarkably like her."
Daniel smiled, chuckling softly. "Is that so?"
It was silent again for a moment as Daniel contemplated what would come next. "So," he said, "when will you return to your family? We're rather safe now, all told, especially now that Guts is back with us."
"I figured I'd stick around for the short time it'd take for you and yours to clear your good name," Willem replied with a wry grin. After a moment, he sighed quietly. "It's been a good while since I've been with them, but Josephine and the children are strong. They can bear the wait a little longer."
"No," Daniel said quickly, his blood running chill. "Your family needs you. We'll be fine without you. Go home, please."
"I can't just abandon you and yours," Willem argued. "Your band lost almost 50 men in this attack. You'll need every able-bodied man you can get."
Daniel spared a moment to look around, seeing the rest of the band occupied in some way or another, attending to other business or celebrating Guts' return. He returned his focus to Willem, lowering his voice nearly to a whisper as he did. "Something is coming. Something that will see most of this band dead. You shouldn't abandon your wife and children like that."
Willem's eyes went wide. "And I can't abandon the man who helped me become what I am today," he hissed. "I-"
"Your presence would only add another body to the field so many would lay on," Daniel said urgently. "I can't fully say what it is now, only that it is utterly beyond my power to circumvent."
He paused for a moment. "Willem… please. When the coming Eclipse has passed, I may well find you and tell you the whole truth of it. Right now… trust that I would rather you be with your wife and children, where I know you'll be safe."
"Daniel…" Willem said, his expression one of growing desperation.
"In all the time I've spent with Guts," Daniel said quietly, looking back at the man who was the center of celebration, "I've come to fully realize that the best thing a good man can be to his children is a father, not a memory."
He looked back at the now-silent Willem. "Please, Willem. Don't just be a memory to your wife, your son and daughter, this soon."
They stared at each other in silence, Willem closing his eyes and sighing heavily. "Very well."
He stood, remaining where he was for a moment. "Do you think you will survive this coming eclipse?"
Daniel smiled wanly. "I'll do my best to."
Willem grew a warm smile of his own. "Then I'll take it as gospel. If there's anything you and Guts can do, it's crawl out of any situation, dragging whom you so please with you. One way or another."
Daniel chuckled softly, despairing silently. 'Were it so easy.'
"Give my love and regards to your family," he said aloud. "Along with my regrets that I could not meet them just yet."
Willem scoffed. "As if I would forget? Consider it already done."
Willem's smile faded after a moment. "Farewell, Daniel. And good luck."
"And to you, Willem."
With that, Willem walked away, and Daniel allowed himself a quiet sigh of relief.
"Who might that have been?"
Daniel looked up to see Anna, approaching him as she drew herself apart from the festivities. She took the seat Willem had been sitting on.
Daniel took a deep breath. "Willem is an old friend from when Guts was a child growing up in the Thunderbolts. When I first met him soon after he joined, he was a decent man, but desperate to find a better life. Reckless, to an extent."
He paused for a moment to scoff. "Something he hasn't fully shaken off, it seems."
"But I took him under my wing," he continued. "He was the sort a mercenary band like that would have ground into corpse paste. But by my side, he became my trusted second in command. And now, he's a husband, a father, a man with a home and a decent, likely rather quiet job."
Daniel's slight smile faded away. "The sort of man who shouldn't be caught up with us in the coming days."
"I see," Anna said quietly.
They looked out at the Band of the Falcon, wounded, weary, but in high spirits. "He does indeed seem a good man, if he was willing to risk so much for you and those you stand with."
"A time will come when that is needed," Daniel said. "But for this… charnel tempest that looms over us…"
He shook his head at a loss for words. So, he simply studied Guts and Judeau and Rickert and Pippin, all surrounded by celebrating comrades.
"Come along," Anna finally said, standing and beckoning Daniel. "Let's join the festivities. Have a little joy while we can."
Daniel nodded, standing with her. "That sounds like as good an idea as any," he replied as they approached the near-raucous group, a cheer going up as they joined.
. . .
The night wore on, and eventually, the Band of the Falcon, for the most part, drifted off to sleep, one way or another.
One of the very few who waited to watch the sunrise was Guts, some of his armor set aside for the moment as he leaned on one of the trees and watched the rays of light hitting the waterfall before them, brilliant little rainbows leaping off the waterfall.
It was a remarkable sight. One that Guts, as far as he could tell, appreciated alone.
Then, from behind him, he heard footsteps approaching, waiting and continuing his vigil until he saw Casca walk past the tree he leaned on.
She looked back at him for the briefest of moments, then nodded forward as she caught his gaze. "Come with me for a little while."
Guts' brow furrowed slightly as Casca continued on, following her after a moment.
They walked for far longer than Guts was expecting, entering a little clearing that was a decent ways away from camp. Whatever Casca wanted to say, she wanted it to remain private.
The first words she spoke as they came to the middle of the clearing were the last he ever expected to hear.
"Defend yourself."
Guts blinked. "What? What can I defend? Everything went wrong when I left. Hell, I don't even know what-"
He found himself cut off as he realized, in the instant that Casca drew her sword and pivoted with utter focus in her eyes, that her words were far more literal than he first thought.
'The hell?' he thought as he pivoted, putting a hand on the end of his hilt to tilt it just so, his blade's guard meeting her blade with the clang of ringing steel.
As Casca pulled back, guts backed away. "Wait a minute! Time out! That strike… you trying to kill me?"
"Defend yourself, damn it!" Casca shouted, charging forward to try at a lunging stab.
Guts responded by continuing to retreat, Casca coming after him doggedly. 'I'm not going to hurt her like this!' he promised himself.
"Stop fooling around!" Casca snarled. "Draw your sword!"
Again she tried to charge into a stab, but Guts simply stepped aside and held out his foot, sending Casca sprawling into the grass.
"What the hell's wrong with you?" Guts asked. "Even with everything I know I messed up, it seems like so much to try and kill me."
He sighed as he shook his head. "What's going on?"
"It is your fault," Casca growled as she picked herself up and threw herself at Guts. "All of it! Everything we've lost!"
Finally, Guts drew his sword, the blades themselves clashing. "All of it?" Guts asked.
"Yes," Casca said, her voice low. "Midland, the Falcons, Griffith… all because you left us! Because you abandoned Griffith!"
Guts stepped back, catching the hilt of Casca's sword in one hand. "Abandon…"
Guts clenched his jaw as he saw an image of Griffith, kneeling in the snow as he walked away. "All because I walked away? I somehow abandoned him?"
Casca's face twisted, anguish added to her rage. "You really are a fool."
Guts pushed her back as he released her sword, and she tried for an upward lunge at Guts' face. "I thought I told you back then!" she shouted. "To accomplish something so grand, he has to endure so much more than with any other dream!"
"But you…" Casca said, her anger bleeding into sorrow. "You made Griffith weak! He's no…"
Casca reached the peak of her attack, leveling her sword at him for another stab. "We were no good without you!"
Guts' eyes went wide at what she really must have meant, the image of Griffith in the snow joined by… her.
Guts barely even felt the sword enter his side, scraping off his chestplate and sliding over his ribs for a moment before it stopped. He only saw her eyes, wide with shock as she looked into his, his eyes which he felt were dead.
Casca began to pull the blade from his side, but Guts grabbed it, holding it still.
"Guts…" Casca said, her anger having flickered out for embers of dull shock. "You should have been able to dodge that. Why?"
She tried again, Guts keeping the blade where it was. "Guts," Casca said, desperation beginning to take anger's place. "Let it go!"
"What else should I have done?" Guts asked quietly.
Casca paused for a moment. "Guts, if we don't patch that up-"
"I'm only doing what Griffith would have done," Guts interjected. "Finding my own way. Doing my own thing."
"What else should I have done?"
Casca, tears welling in her eyes, began to pull at the blade again. "Alright, I get it! Let go, you fool! Please!"
Finally, Guts' grip slackened enough for her to stumble back, falling to the ground and sitting there for a moment. They remained there, silent, for one heartbeat. Then another.
Finally, Casca made a sound somewhere between sighing and chuckling. "You know…" she said, all emotion gone from her voice, "I know you're right. I really do. It's just…"
She looked up at him, and Guts couldn't help but feel a chill trickle down his spine at how… empty Casca's eyes were. "I just can't take it anymore."
She slowly got to her feet as she continued. "You remember how I wanted to be Griffith's sword."
Guts nodded. "Yeah. I do."
"That woman… the woman who wanted to become that… She was bluffing, then."
Casca looked down at the ground. "I'm sure I truly meant it at first, but I also realized back then that Griffith wasn't a god. And that I was a woman."
She shook her head. "How easy would it be if I could just… will my heart to feel as I wanted it to? But I'm not a fool. That night on the stairway, I think I first realized that if Griffith set his sights on the throne, then Princess Charlotte was his quickest way there. Knowing Griffith… he would reach for it someday."
She paused for a moment. "I thought, for the briefest moment, I could bear the weight of this tragedy too. I wanted to believe that, even if I couldn't be his sword, or his woman, I could still at least be indispensable to the realization of his dream."
Casca slowly began stepping back. "But that day, standing in the snow and watching you leave… I finally realized that there wasn't room by Griffith's side like there used to be. My dreams had ended."
She sighed, the sound almost lost in the rush of the waterfall behind them. "I can't do it anymore," she admitted. "Desperately protecting the Band of the Falcon, desperately hanging on to a fruitless hope like I might disappear… but enough's enough."
Guts slowly began to step forward as Casca stood at the edge of the long drop into the water. "I couldn't be a woman, or a sword, or something invaluable," Casca said. "To keep protecting the cracked dream of a man who might not even be alive… I just… can't…"
Finally, she looked up at Guts and smiled, her eyes a void. "I'm so tired… you and Daniel… you can take care of it…"
Then she closed her eyes and began to lean back.
. . .
Casca would take just a few more secrets to her death as she prepared for it. Just a few more things she knew Guts could figure out. 'I realized something else, that day. Even though he destroyed everything we worked for… even though his blood stained my sword… even though I hate him, feel like I want to kill him… I can't.'
'More than Griffith kneeling on the field of his first defeat, I couldn't tear my eyes away from him. Walking away, without even looking back.'
'I didn't want to admit what I'd become. That the me I'd been since I'd met Griffith, that her feelings would be false. So I lived by my sword. Willing to die by it for my unrequited feelings.'
'There was honesty in the way I lived. That alone was my pride, a gift given by Griffith. But now… I guess it doesn't matter, does it?'
She found the edge of the cliff… let herself go…
Then, she felt a vice grip on her hand, her body slamming against the cliffside before she opened her eyes, and looked up at… him.
'Why?' she thought as she watched Guts strain to pull her up, grabbing her shoulders and tossing her away from the long drop she had resigned herself to.
"Damn it!" she heard him shout. "You need to just stay away from cliffs! I can't keep throwing myself to my potential death like that!"
She heard him wince in pain, and with that simplest noise, the dam finally broke.
"You fool…"
"Huh?" Guts stood still as she turned and approached him, placing a hand over the one that covered the wound she'd given him.
"Every time with us…" she said. "You're always getting hurt. Always bleeding. Because of me."
She looked up to him, stifling a sob no longer. "You're a fool," she said, and she was sure that Guts saw through her eyes her very soul, grief and guilt and resignation all mixed up within her.
She slumped forward, her head hitting his chest as everything, seemingly beyond her will, finally clicked into place. "Fool," she muttered, her sobs gone to weeping.
. . .
Guts stood there silently for a moment, then raised a calloused hand to gently wipe the tears from Casca's face. He wiped each cheek, then kept wiping until they stayed dry. At last, he gently bowed his head, gently kissing her hair. His lips wandered down, forehead, the bridge of her nose, then he paused as she gently lifted her face, his lips just gently brushing the tip of her nose as he hesitated.
They looked at each other, all that they had gone through, all that they hadn't said reflected in each other. And amazingly, he knew they both knew it.
His hand brushed down to cup her chin, a rough thumb going past smooth, soft lips as he gently lifted her to him, not knowing quite how they'd come to sit on the soft grass.
Then, their lips met softly, and they became strangers to each other in a way that fighting side by side for years could never have dispelled. But here, now, they could find out the end of that path that had started so long ago in the hollow of those roots.
. . .
It had been a process that had been strangely quick, strangely slow, getting their armor off, then their clothes, as if time had begun to wander away from them. Now, the gentle roar of the waterfall next to them a blanket of noise, Guts gently laid Casca down in between the roots of a great tree. She covered her chest, seemingly one last piece of armor for them to try and break, as she looked up at him with a hesitant expectation that he knew he mirrored.
It felt so strange, to loom over her like this, watching as she glanced away with a slight blush on her cheeks.
"You're shaking," he said quietly as he brushed her cheek, feeling her trembling. "Are you scared?"
It was silent for a moment before she nodded. "I think I am…" she said hesitantly. "Even with all we know about each other, I still wonder how I'm going to change, being with you like this. If everything will start to become a lie."
She shook her head as she looked up, her eyes squeezing shut in a way that twisted at Guts' heart. "Like everything's going to fade away and be gone forever…" she whispered.
It was silent again for a moment, Guts drawing closer and taking in the smell of Casca that seemed to overpower all else here. "I'm such a coward…" Casca whispered again as Guts studied her for a moment, her body laid out before him.
Muscles and scars, built up by years of fighting, became roads and channels for Guts' finger to trace gently down, feeling where he touched quiver gently in his wake. It was strange, almost, how this body he'd lifted from time to time felt so different like this. "These scars…" he said as his finger circled the jagged marks. "These must be from recent battles."
"And these…" he traced up and down her body, gently, slowly. "Big and little, all from your time…"
He flinched slightly as she sat up, huddling in on herself slightly as she blushed a little deeper. "C'mon, Casca." Guts said with a quiet sigh. "No point in hiding them. You wear them like those commendations all the other soldiers get."
"Maybe," Casca said hotly, then faltered. "But even I'm… I'm a… woman. They don't…"
"I know what you are." Guts said firmly. "You get all jealous, can get real angry, and can throw a mean punch. That's plenty womanly for you. But more than that, I feel it. How serious you were. How serious you are."
He looked at her, into those eyes that had entranced him now. "I understand," he said, the words becoming weary. "Nobody lies their way into a body with this many scars."
It was silent between them for a moment, then Guts took Casca by the shoulders. "If you spend too much time on the dead, the broken, some say, you'll find death perched on your shoulder. He was on yours earlier, I think."
He pulled her into an embrace, feeling her sweat as he breathed it in, the scent mixing with his. "Don't think about those things. Right now, all you need to do is feel alive."
He felt her relax, her arms coming up to feel his as he kissed her again, laying her back on the ground as his hands began to wander her body again alongside his lips.
He heard her sigh as he went, down and down and down, shifting himself on the grass that now gently needled his legs and hips as he descended. Her breath hitched as he gently kissed her other lips, breathing still more of her in as he kissed her again.
He took a deep breath as he rose after what felt like forever and a moment. "Alright," he said quietly, steadying himself as he placed himself in front of her again. "Here I go…"
He was in, and she gasped, and Guts found himself fumbling silently within himself as he tried to figure out what to do next. He'd heard the mercenaries around him growing up describing what this felt like to their comrades at one point or another, but here, now, all he had was instinct.
It was a somewhat frantic thing at first, in and in and in, the times between punctuated by Casca's little gasps and moans that urged him on. "W-wait!" she finally said after a moment, Guts pausing for a moment as she caught her breath. "Please… a little… a little gentler…" she whispered.
Guts looked at her as he nodded once, the effort of slowing his pace becoming almost second nature as they continued.
Their passion seemed to make them climb the tree as they shifted one way or another, Guts feeling the warmth of his blood, driven by a heartbeat that was still running wild, going down her body as she turned and he began again.
Guts' mind, for a moment, simply drifted within the strange calmness he found here, an oneness that seemed utterly inexplicable. Then, he looked at Casca's face…
It wasn't Casca's face anymore. It was him, that wad of cloth a gag in his mouth he could feel, and he felt… monstrous. Something was behind him. He was behind him again!
"Yer ass got sold out, kid…"
The forest was gone, Casca was gone, and Gambino now loomed over him, that tree he'd been found under behind. "You should have died."
"Guts?"
He focused, saw that boy looking back at him. What was he doing? Why wasn't he doing anything?
He finally gained the strength to do what Gambino said. Like a good soldier. His hands reached out, grasped the boy's neck, began to squeeze…
"You should have died."
Over and over again, the words echoed, the blade going into Gambino's heart over and over again. A soldier didn't kill his commanding officer. A son didn't kill the man who gave him life. Gambino was better than this…
Then, finally, Casca cried out in pain, and he blinked, his eyes going wide as he realized what, exactly, he was doing.
He let go, stepping back as he began to tremble. He was supposed to let go. Why couldn't he let go?
"Guts?" he heard Casca ask plaintively. "Why…"
He cut her off as he strode forward, slamming the tree as his eyes darted to and fro, trying desperately to look at anything but her. "I didn't mean it," he muttered. "I just did what I was trained to do. I… I didn't mean to kill you, Gambino…"
"Gambino…" Casca said. " Guts, you can't…"
"He tried to murder me." Guts growled. "He gave me up to Donovan. I was pinned despite everything I'd been trained to do, and he took me right there, and I couldn't do a goddamned thing!"
His breath heaved, and he leaned back as he laughed almost deliriously. "But he still saved my ass from Wyald. Gave Daniel a chance to drive him off. Gave me medicine for the cut he gave me across my nose. It doesn't make sense."
"Guts," Casca said gently, "you defended yourself…"
Guts' hands slammed into the tree again, on either side of Casca's head, the stinging in his palms an almost welcome feeling. "No! It's not that simple! He should have been better than that! He still knew how to swing a sword without his leg. He should have stopped me."
He sank to his hands and knees in front of her as it all continued to pour out. "But he was always drinking. He'd talk to that dog of his. 'Shisu, Shisu'. He only ever acknowledged me when I could help him with something. Then, he…"
"Attacked you."
Guts looked up at Casca, eyes wide with shock as he took in her sympathetic expression. "Daniel told me about it. When you first met us."
It was silent again before Guts gave a choked chuckle. "He should have parried me. He taught me how to do that from the ground. But my sword was there. In his heart…"
He shook his head as he looked at the ground again. "It doesn't make sense," he muttered softly. "It doesn't make sense."
He felt tears, hot and prickly and confusing as all hell, beginning to flow. Then, he jumped as he felt Casca's hand on his shoulder, straightening up and looking at her for a moment, kneeling towards him.
He stood, sighing as he covered his face. "S… Sorry. I did something horrible to you. I… Sorry."
His mind was a mess and his heart ached. "This was your first time. And I did… that…"
"Guts-" Casca began, then jumped slightly as Guts turned and threw her cloak over her in one smooth motion.
He turned away, beginning to walk. "I can't just say forget about it now. I'll go if you tell me to get lost. Otherwise, I swear I'll make it up to you on the battlefield."
"Guts." he heard Casca say firmly, hearing the cloak shifting as she likely stood. "You defended yourself. You did what you had to do. You couldn't figure for what came next."
He stood in place, pondering the words for a moment as he looked out at the tranquil forest. "I'm supposed to get over it." Guts said. "Daniel said that's what you do after something like that. And this past year, I thought I finally did it. So… why'd it come back now?"
He felt like he was babbling, but he continued regardless. "It's laughable, really. I've killed so many people. More than I can count now. So why? Why him? Gambino? It's such…"
He paused as he felt Casca, warm, soft somehow, pressed against his back, her arms wrapping around him.
Guts opened his mouth, then sighed quietly. "Don't worry about it," he said quietly. "It'd just be us licking each other's wounds instead of something actually special."
"Would it not be something special anyway?" Casca retorted.
Guts had no answer as she continued. "Even if that's all that, it's… it's fine. I've already shown you my weakness. I've shown you everything I am, now. Somehow… I feel like we're finally even."
Guts felt Casca's arms begin to shift, her hands tracing the scars on his body as he shivered at the sensation. "You've bled so much for me," she whispered. "These wounds… they're from the 150-man battle, aren't they?"
He raised an arm as she walked around him, her hand coming up under the still-tender gash she'd given him with that stab, roughly dressed before all this truly started. "Even the wound I gave you…" she said, before gently kissing it, once, then again.
She fully circled in front of him as she embraced him again. "Licking wounds is fine by me," she said before looking up at him. "You can give me a wound too. And I'd be proud of it."
He lost himself in her eyes, then her lips, then her body again, as they both lost themselves to each other, the gentle breeze softly stroking their bodies as they intertwined, became something more than they ever were apart. Every movement, every breath, solidified it, solidified them, before at last, exhausted, they drifted off to a moment's sleep entwined in each other's arms.